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Tuesday, September 8, 2009

hellos.
haizz.
i felt so stress...
this post will be long.
no names with be mention.
this is about my feeling nowadays.
ok.
so.
alright,sometimes i have some werid feeling.
i felt.
lonely,emo-ish.
sometimes i tried my very best.
very best!
i tried to fit into my friends...
as in making them feel the present of mi.
but sometimes.
i dun feel that they didn't know i'm there.
they took mi as a toy,pushing mi from here to there.
what do they expect of mi?
i have enough!
i tried to smile everyday.
but sometimes i cant just bring myself to it.
sometimes i was forced to smile.
ok i smile.
it doesn't mean anything...
i really really really have enough.
i dun know whether to keep this to myself or wat?
i sometimes think of tranferring school.
you see?
i hate the feeling of being extra.
i try my ways to catch their attention.
or maybe i'm just too(dun know)
but i'm also a human.
human which totally have a feeling.
when i feel extra,i feel emo-ish.
when i feel emo-ish.
ppl dun like it.
i have no idea what to do.
i'm at lost.
please.
i'm confused at the same time too.
some are the ones which i can feel.
that i'm not extra.
some people took mi as a replacement.
i'm a different from the person you want.
may someone,anyone just answer my this question.
Do friend sometimes feel extra,emo-ish or anything?
i'm crying at the same time now.
i really at lost.
pls just answer this question.
i think i shouldn't have treated everyone the way i treat my primary friends.
i should have known to treat everyone differently.
i'm stupid.
real stupid.
should i be the world's stupidest person?
i'm not trying to point at anyone now.
i'm just stating what i am feeling now.
haizz..
i hope this post make mi learnt my lesson.
i promise that i will only treat whose who really good to mi,
the way i treated them early in the year.
those who needs no attention to,different.
i have made my promise.
after a cry i feel much better.
typing out everything.
should i just let everything go as it should?
or is it that the god has planned it for mi?
if it is planned.
i should follow shouldn't i?
[My WORDS]
readers,dun treat mi differently.
treat mi the way you used to treat mi.
its ok.
once i get use to it.
its fine.
just live your life.
if this is god's will.
i will live it.
if you wanna let the whole class know,do it.
infront of mi.
you can copy it photocopy for the class..
if my words are wrong.
correct mi.
ok till here.

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