milli.

hellos ppl.
went to school for humanities exam.
during exam i got extra time.
so i wrote this just for my dog,milli.
To my beloved milli,
you live as a dog,my pet for this life.
i'm sry if i've ever ill-treated you.
but in my heart,you are my best dog.
my one and only dog that live this life.
even is you are at SPCA,getting ready to go heaven,you will always live inside me.
if iwere to give out awards,you will be my first.
you spend every moment of your life with me.
i watch you grow from a small dog into a fat dog,how great.
i've grow from a 6 year old boy into a 13 year old boy.
you have grow from a 3 year old small dog into a 10 year old fat dog.
at first i never thought that your life end odd like this.
can't bear to but sorry milli,you someday will still leave me.
we have spend a happy moment together.
we sing,we dance,we even swim together.
when i'm sad,stress,you will always come to me,play with me.
you lighted my life like noone can,i rate you as a 5-star dog!
no matter how great you are,you have to go,
i have to let go my hands,it's a deep scar.
i'm really sorry.
i'll take revenge for you.
R.I.P
milli(22-4-1996 -- 1-10-2009)
grah.
almost cry when writing this.
then giv yvonne read.
she cried.
gave zakiyah see.
nobody know the pain.
they are like.
heck care ah.
heck care heck care lo.
dun talk to me.
the person who really care for mi is James.
he called me yesterday.
ask me whether i'm alright.
obviously not alright.
went crying for the whole day.
never even sleep well.
i 4am plus then sleep.
tried.
6am wake up.
sleep not even till 1hour.
i miss milli.

R.I.P
[edited]
To milli.
i hope that u understand what i'm trying to say.
i forgot to say i love you before letting you go.
i guess its too late.
but.
i will love you forever.
nobody,noone can replace you.
i know once gone,never come back.
so sorry.
i just hope that your next life,be a human.
if u can,be my child.
wait for me.
i feel like ending my life at this point.
i really really miss you.
when i went to the toilet.
it make me remember that time we were playing with water.
after that got scolding.
it worth it.
i went outside.
it make me remember that u shit outside.
that was funny.
i went to my room.
see that place that you used to sleep.
it warms my heart when you close your eyes.
i went to kitchen.
remember feeding you chicken meat.
u choose out chicken meat.
rice dun eat.
you got a scolding from me.
NO CHOOSING FOOD EVEN IF YOU ARE IN HEAVEN!
no matter how busy i may be.
i will make out time to play with you.
but.
regretted.
i just hope.
HOPE!
someone understands this pain.
no one can.
some make fun out of it.
idk what is there to laugh?
i last wish is that u be happy in heaven.
god bless you.