Pissed.

○ I know i cant survive without you but i know i have to. ○

hello! today's post no photo. lazy plus no mood to put. im so pissed now. crying is my only resort. it has been very long since i last cried. First,Good friday. went tonning with WeiSheng. went home around 5 plus because around 4 plus his parents saw him so he ran away. i went to find him but he is no where to be found. Till saturday midnight. thru out everything. This fucken bitch, Angeline. step one ah lian attitude. i am not scare of writing her name here cos this is my blog, not happy then dont fucking read it. okay? just STFU if you want to read. if not fuck off. Sorry for using so many F word. She gave that one ah lian attitude when she and weisheng isnt that close. Please ah. want find trouble go find somebody else kay. dont come and kpkb over here like one mad idiot. You arent even close to weisheng then you suddenly appear and go gaga about it. Please uh. go and die please. == i go malaysia with my family you huanlo. i know la. . :( whatever == Today, Tues. i am so fucked up. apparently when i reach home. i saw my house like some fuck house. there is shyt and pee everywhere. and bit and bites of paper on the floor. i was okay with it at first until i came into my room. i saw my iphone charger and my samsung charger. BOTH SPOIL! because my damn fucked up dog go bite. i can swear im gonna send her away. seriously. teach also cannot. beat also cannot. Gary say im a pet lover and i cant say this. but wtf. if you are in my shoes. who wont be pissed?! i change 3 times le leh! 3 fucking USB le. and i even stop her from coming into my bed. i knew i had to do something. i went out grab her and teach her a lesson that she wont forget. i had enough. im gonna make her sleep in the kitchen tonight. no more mr nice man. being nice just sucks. and i suck at being a niceniceman.


-insertname- also asked if im okay. i say i am. but -insertname- dont believe. so i went like, anything uh. i wanted to sms -insertname- this morning but i didnt. i knew its impossible. even if its possible. it wont last. cause just look at us now. we dont even talk for more than 10 sentence in our conversation already. all we do is. hi bye. end. thats it. i wanted to start a conversation but when i think of the replies im gonna get. i went like. ah forget it. i dont know if -insertname- is reading this, but whatever it is. im still gonna continue living like i always do. i know i changed. i freaking hell know i did. i became colder to everyone else. i start to build my guards. everyday my guards start to build up. The trust i have in people is dying. I never thought of living everyday like this but i have to. Those caring words were no where to be found. Maybe its just my destiny.


my only way out is to cry all the way out of this world. off to somewhere where i truthfully know i belong. It is so close yet so far. I wonder how many people will remember me if i am gone one day. i really wonder. i remember the smiles i paste on people's face. those bright smile. Im fine now. Really i am. Exam in a few days' time. im gonna concentrate and after everything is over. im gonna live like i never did. ♥