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HELLO GUISE. It's almost a month of not blogging, miss me yes? i know, so today's blog post might be a little too long but i believe y'all will read on right? Firstly, F1! I am not too sure if all of y'all know that i was working with F1 during their Night Race in Singapore, if you are not sure, i'll let you know now! I worked with them during their 3 Days of operation. I tell you guys the experience is something money can't buy. Communicating with people from many different countries and helping out in the operation of the event. Meeting new people and doing lots of work which i enjoy. I got tanned on my neck and my legs. Now i look like im half roasted, but its alright! Swim more to make it even. During the 3 days thanks to my supervisor, Quinn Pronounce as Queen. I was the only guy working with many girls in Zone 3. Let me get the photo...

HERE! My F1 Team, Worked with them for 3 days. A Seriously amazing experience, See you next year F1! After F1 was my CCA outing. A group wonderful people, if you don't know... My CCA is MicMasters so what is that? Apparently it is a CCA that does Emceeing but for now, we don't have any event to do emceeing so we are more of a bonding kind of CCA now. It's kinda amazing! We went to Sentosa for our outing! Finding photos.....

AH HERE! Let me name them for y'all! The last photo.. From left to right. Mike, Amirul, Daryl, Marcus, Winnie, Raz, WeiAn, Reena and Timothy. The one taking photos for us is Muhaimin. It was awesome, the outing is really fun. We bond quite a few big bit from this outing and hope to have more in future! Immediately the next day after the outing was the release of our results for our exams. GPA of 2.706 , people say its okay, quite normal but to me its horrible. Its so low! Even though i studied i still get this kind of results, thats annoying. So decided to really work damn ass hard for this semester. School reopened shortly after the outing and the release of results. Back to school and on the first day of school, we are told that we have Projects to be done and our deadlines are already given. Stress on the first day, how nice. This semester credits worth 18 points. Its the highest of the 4 semester! So no choice, this semester no matter what, must study damn hard. Aim for my 4 GPA this semester and get into the director's list! It's hard but its worth it. On the first week of school, which is last week. I had to go to school 7 days a week. Friday, Saturday and Sunday to help out in GameFest. Was doing my job typing Data for the event in a air-con room. I was a little annoyed at the manpower managing part because i brought my computer along and was being pull out to do ushering for the registration. First and Second day, it annoys me but shortly i was being pull back to the air-con room to type my data, obviously i was happy with it. Typed over a few hundred names and details, i have to say, Gamers should go spend some money to get their names, address and IC Number on stamp so that when they do registration, they dont have to write their details just stamp on the paper and go. Their handwriting are so horrible even a 8 year old girl can write neater than them. They also gave fake phone numbers, ic numbers and email. Its so obvious. Other than typing data, i also helped in doing the follow lights to follow the GOH on Saturday evening. It was fun! It was like a machine gun, my partner in crime is no other than Angelina! HERE YOU GO! PHOTO!

During the Rehearsal on Friday, it was so annoying! The teacher kept giving stupid ideas and remarks. He wanted to move my big ass follow light from one spot to another spot which i really disagree cause if anyone or anything damaged it will be me and Angelina's responsibilities, That teacher is really annoying. Ass! So anyway, My weekend was gone just like that but it all ended on sunday night. Here's the photo of my class.

So to end this post! I CAN'T END WITHOUT WHAT I ALWAYS DO,

SELFIE!
CIAOS!

Doggies.

Well Guys, After a few days not blogging. Back here for more ranting and this time im seriously pissed off. You guys must be thinking why am i always mad and ranting all out on my blog, well, I guess this is the only platform which i can rant.Today topic of the day, DOGS. mmhmm, why dogs? Basically im pissed off at my dad. Yep, of all people my dad. WOO HOO, Life. Today and the day before he is pissed off at the same thing. THE SAME OLD DAMN FUCKING DOG SHIT AND PEE. He got pissed off because we didn't clear them before we go. Well, i have to rush to school this morning and i was rushing. I only got time to drink a cup of milk before rushing out where got the time to clear right. Then i dont get why my sister didnt want to clear it and left it there for my dad to come home and scold. I mean like wtf. IF you can scold why not just clear it. Since all you can do is to use your mouth to scold. USE YOUR HANDS TO WORK. Actions always speaks louder than words so if you can scold so much why not just use those damn hands to do some work. Thats okay, what shocked me is the fact that without my permission, he posted the photo of my dogs online and ask if anyone wants to adopt them. I mean like what the fuck, Without my permission you want to put my dogs online to be adopted away. JUST BECAUSE WE DONT CLEAR THEIR SHIT, he do such stuff. No one gives him the rights to let people adopt my dog. If he dislike my dogs so much then dont talk to them or touch them. I was in school helping out with the F1 stuff then here he is trying to let my dogs out to other people. fuck it man, No one gave him the rights to do that. Its just like, my sister being hungry then i didnt cook for her and my dad chase her out of the house.  Doesn't make any sense. No logic. So now i dont even bother talking to him at all. How old le still act like a child. Argh. My dogs are like my children. WHICH PARENTS WILL LET THEIR CHILDREN GO JUST LIKE THAT. 

Misses

Well hello hello. Today don't seem to be my day for a reason. Firstly. invited AnAn over to my house to play Mstar, i mean like its normal since there's no school and im completely bored at home and Pepperlunch manager did not respond to my messages about work so i assume i am not involved in any activities related to them. Anyway, im quitting soon cause the next sem Modules are killers, serious killers cause damn, all theory base questions. Loads of stuff to remember. Oh, back to topic. Dad came home and shouted at me for not clearing the shits and pees my dog created. Oh holy dogs. created something so holy. ONCE HE CAME HOME, SHOUTED AT ME. And my damn sister decided to tell my mum my friend came over in the morning. so my mum messaged me and asked me, i explained. She's okay then my dad. other than complaining and posting stuff online, he did nothing. What can i expect right, since he has been saying stuff and doing another sort of stuff. so i am like bitch please. if you want me to do stuff, as the older one, YOU show me how its done. You dont go around bitching about how this and that is done when you do no damn shit. so yeah, i went to clear and there goes my mum telling me off about how i should clear those stuff and not wait till my dad is home and let him nag. Claiming that i did not do anything instead of playing computer games. YEAH RIGHT, whatever i did you guys did not see and there yall mouth go opening and closing. If its not for me who clean up the floor again cause my sister did not clean it properly. YOU GUYS WILL BE WALKING ON OILY FLOOR AND SLIP FALL AND PROBABLY ROLL DOWN THE STAIRS AND I DONT KNOW, ROLL FURTHER? It's all these little little action will make you guys come home in peace not worrying about falling over. Since these little actions are nothing in yall eyes then why should i do it. Totally waste of my time. Whatever it is. I'm pissed. he is pissed. my mum is pissed my sister is pissed. I probably should just run away from home. Which i wont actually. Come on, i love my bed. I got my bed why would i run away from home right. Oh well, life. When on the way home after walking to waterfront with AnAn, i was checking my whatsapp and come across HuiYun's Chat. I don't know, maybe im being over sensitive? i dont know, i just dislike it when people ignore my messages. I know they read my messages but why cant they even bother to reply. I mean like take 5 mins or even lesser than that to reply to my text will cause you to lose a few piece of meat from your body? I dont know man, Just thinking about it annoys me. Maybe this friendship isn't that strong as it used to seem? Azmirah with her own dance crew, HuiYun with her crush and friends. Maybe what i am doing to make them realize that they actually have a true friend here is useless. Probably i should stop trying since trying is nothing in their eyes. It just seem that im just trying too hard and can be easily forgotten. Judge me for all you want cause friendship is important to me. Now i think about it, True friends. NAH, THEY DONT EXIST. No matter how hard you try, if they are not your true friends, they won't be. Becoming moody because of these. how weak. Oh well, life still needs to go on. Gym tomorrow with my bro. Run and forget them all stress.

Emotions,

Hello guys, Back here blogging just before i go off to bed. Been quite affected by something recently. Its all about love. Just recently, i got a date. Yep, i got a date. The person isn't a She but a He. He's from my school and really amazing thing about this is. I don't even use any kind of applications to know about him. I think when the person come, they come. So yeah, i was all ready for it but when i told my close friend about it, He changed. yep, Totally. I don't even know why. I told him way before that me and him will never get a chance to be together, The max we will go is Brothers. It will never hit the tip top Relationship part. He said he understood me but now, He's being all so affected and became mean, He uses mean words on me telling me to go gym with my boy when i already told him i will go gym with him, I mean like, Just because i have a date doesn't mean you are not my friend. I dont get it why, Some people told me, " You made a wrong friend." I dont agree to it. He's a really good friend but i guess. sometimes, people gets overly attached and becomes like this? I dont know.. one, I dont want to lose him as my friend. Two, i dont want to lose my boy. Both are equally amazing and my treasure. I feel.. lost. I am seriously. lost.

Holidays approaching.

Well Hello hello there my readers. Sorry for not blogging for a long period of time and now i am back blogging just a day before my exams tomorrow.  My final exam for this sem. Events Panning logistics, just by the name, you should have know that its a very boring paper because of all those logistics stuff i have to remember but oh well. Tomorrow shall be the day where it all ends.  One month holidays come next and gonna try work as much as i can to earn a big amount of money so i can save and spend in case of emergency. Been long since the last time i blog, Lots of feelings been kept inside. Now i guess i can let it all out. Right, so as much as i would not like to say this but i feel a little annoyed when i ask people out and they NEVER fail to turn me down. NEVER fail. Maybe out of 10 times i ask them out 12 times they turn me down. Y'all know the feeling yeah, You cannot say anything else except, "Nevermind, Next Time."  It's always annoying to be turned down but as humans, you will tend to get used to it and eventually forget it. You won't want to ask the same person again because you know deep inside that you're gonna be turned down again. So to avoid feeling disappointed and pissed off and annoyed and whatever negative feelings you will feel then,better to not ask them again. This year has been something, without knowing today is already the first of September. Exactly 9 months ago, i was with a guy i thought is the right one but then, nope doesn't seem like it. Now, i feel so scared to be very close with someone just in case they fall for me, especially when i don't feel same towards them. I don't know whether i am sending them a wrong signal cause when i fall for someone else and you obviously want to share that happy feeling with your close friend however, your close friend feel hurt and tries to change you with all those flashback. Yes i know we have been through a lot together but please, we have made it clear that we will never be up to the standard of being a couple. With me having a partner doesn't mean i will forget you or i will totally replace you. There's nothing to be worry about just that i am attached to someone else but i am still your close friend. I think its quite obvious when i am set for my target, i will work towards it. No matter whatever you say that tries to change my mind, it won't work. Lastly, MONEY PROBLEMS. Again, how i wish money can just grow on the trees. I seriously need to work on keeping cash in my wallet and not waste any more money on stuff that is wasting it. I need to start thinking of the hours i need to work in order to earn that amount of money. I need to. Sighpie. Money money, grow on those damn trees for me to pluck.

Cell-less

Haven't been posting for the past few days because things are getting more and more intense in school and more projects, work and exams coming up. Trying to cope with school work as well as work. Yes, i got a job at Pepper Lunch Express. I am currently training at Bishan Junction 8 Pepper Lunch so if you happen to crave for Pepper Lunch Express Come and find me, But i will be there only for 10 days since Admiralty's Pepper Lunch Express opening soon, i will be moving over. I don't really like working at Bishan probably because i dont like working with people who are already working there, i feel so awkward. Okay enough of work, lets move on to School. So Today had to go to school for F1 training. Everything was okay and quite boring but my group is really really funny. Laughing like mad, but the day ended early. However, in the mist of everything. I just so happened to have this ridiculously immature dude in my class throwing paper plane and hit xin ni. Idah got so flare up that she scolded him. You readers, will NEVER EVER EVER guess what came out of his mouth. i swear. I was caught off guard and was stun for a moment when he said that. He said, " Report police ah" To which he replied to idah's request for him to pick up the paper. YOU KIDDING ME BRO? YOU KIDDING ME? POLICE , PICK UP PAPER. POLICE. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. What the fuck, HAHAHA. I was caught in between Laughing about it or Laughing my ass off about it. But i didn't laugh since he hit XinNi and he didn't apologize. If i remember clearly, From what i heard, because i accidentally hit Hilman's phone and drop it and did not apologize, He "target" me. So he offended so many of my friends and did not apologize so should i "target" him too? I mean like bitch please, IF you dont want to get offended then dont do anything that offend other people. Use your damnfucking brains. Even caused Angelina to be late for the Interview on Monday. Its obviously not your results so you give no damn shit about it. What if its you. i go walk around and sit and eat and after 10 mins i realise i have to go and call you up. How would you feel? If Apologizing is so hard, i seriously ponder what is easy. At least, apologize. But nope, you think ya'll cool not apologizing, Dude you are so wrong. I am so sure, many people are hoping you get over and done with your O levels and leave. Nobody wants to see your face in class and your attitude. Seriously, put yourself into other's shoe.  You know, i am not even afraid to say this at all cause i know clearly, you're at fault and you did not apologize. 

Wide. Awake.

Firstly, Grab this photo from YouthOutHere (YOH) from their Facebook Page, Credits to them. So you probably be asking me, what are you holding that black card there for and why did you write that. Basically, This black card is a "Brick" on that wall behind me, it is suppose to let us(people) to actually write down our fear, what we are afraid of and so on, So on my card, i wrote. Afraid of not being accepted by everyone and Contained Space. Again, what is contained space. It would be, the lift? cubical? It should be Confined space but i just like it being called as contained space because i felt being contained, This is what you call... Claustrophobia.. It's damn scary but yeah, trying to overcome it. :) NEXT, I applied a few jobs from JEM's website,Readers, you can visit their website for more information, I applied for 5 jobs, GongCha, Bosinni, Crocs, Kinokuniya, Cathay.. So far, only Bosinni and Crocs replied. Went for the interview at Crocs today, I would say, i really really hate talking to HR people. They always come out with annoying faces and questions. Like bitch please, You dont interview me and judge what i say at the same time. That's just plain bitchy. So again, this afternoon, This guy called Jimmy interviewed me, He saw my previous job, Like ThaiExpress and Pizzahut and he asked why did i leave ThaiExpress after working for a month. I told him, "Manager gave me schedule, for example, start at 11am, end at unknown time." I mean like seriously right, who on the right state of mind will work for a schedule like this. Unknown Time, you kidding with me right. So yeah, i left because of that manager. Pizzahut, i left because of manager as well. That Anthony has been picking on me since the day he came. -.- Seriously. But glad i left. Now thinking about working at Crocs, i feel kind of regret yet excited, i mean like im trying something new, Never work in retail line before so its something new, Next, regret the point that i have to work 22 hours per week, at least. I mean if i really work 22 hours per week then i feel as if i got no life but no choice uh. i think i really have to give up on my weekends. Major sigh. Plus this term in school is going to be very busy with all the projects coming up, presentation together with F1 Core Team, Woah, I really hope i can cope with all these at one go. I wish myself good luck. Phew.

PinkDot'13

PinkDot 2013 has come to great ending. i remember a year ago, i was there with two of my gay friends celebrating the freedom to love after breaking up with my ex. The same view but this year, More people. i think that Singaporeans are becoming more accepting towards LGBT ( Lesbian,Gay,Bisexual,Transexual). Which is a good thing i would say. Even though there will be haters hating but you know, Haters gonna hate, Rollers gonna roll. The LGBT community is just like the rollers that roll. We rock and roll. Yes, This year i am back again to HongLimPark with Vanni,Gaya,Chris and keven. Its super sweet to see so many people coming together and celebrating what we all call love. Straight people especially. i am so so so so so happy that i bring along with me, two Straight friends, Vanni and Gaya.Yes, they as straight as a stick. Anyway, its a wonderful day spent at pinkdot'13. I feel proud to be that little light down there in that picture. Every little light means a hope for the LGBT. I see gay couples, lesbian couples holding hands walking around. As part of the community, You will want everyday to be like today. Being able to hold the hands of that someone you love. As prices of stuff goes up in singapore. Love should still be free. Love is everywhere. You can choose, What to love, Who to love. See so many of my Gay friends there at pinkdot today and giving them a hug makes me feel so good. so super good. I mean, like you dont get to hug them like everyday and in public especially. i really cherish every friendship i have with my gay friends. They are so much better to talk to as compared to straight people. One thing that is true is. Gay Rights is equal to Human Rights, so no one is in the position to judge or take away that rights that every gay people have. Who says LGBT community is a second class citizen, just because you're in the community, you are NOT a second class citizen. Everybody should be equal. Someday, hopefully. Gay people dont have to feel ashamed of who they are and what they are. Someday, they are able to hold the hands of that special someone in public without being judged. We are all waiting and hoping for that Someday to come. Because of the Law and the method parents teach their children, they think that being gay is wrong but in the actual fact. Being gay doesn't make you a sinner. Bear that in mind, Just because you're different it doesn't mean you're alone. So anyway, See you Pinkdot again next year, i am gonna bring more people along with me and hopefully one day, my parents will be accepting and not judge or discriminate any LGBT community and come and join me for Pinkdot. No matter what, even if they dont accept me for who i am, i still love them. :) so to end this post off, Let us all celebrate the freedom to love. <3 br="">

Old Habits dies hard.

Today's blog post is about a few stuff that have been in my mind for a few days have yet to let it out. Probably if you're close to me in a way or two, you would have known that i've applied a job a Jamie's Italian, An award winning restaurant that is opening at VivoCity this July but i doubt i am gonna get that job because they want workers who are able to work on the 1st july however, i am having my chalet on the 1st july which means i cant go for work. Getting that job is rather impossible. Next, Pinkdot is coming up real soon, in 2 more days. Support the freedom to love everybody. I know its hard for some but look, "I went to mac today and the person in front of me didnt order a mac spicy meal. How can he not order a mac spicy meal? I was so upset as almost everyone is eatting a mac spicy meal and i was upset at his order although it did not affect me in any way at all.This is how retarded people sound when they are against gay marriages." Copied from somewhere else, After reading this, i find it rather true. So lets just put aside us as Boys,Girls. Lets just name ourselves as Human, We all have the rights to love someone and be loved by someone. Be it the same gender or different. Then again, People who are gay-friendly are the nicest people i ever met. If you support Gay Rights, i'll give you a big hug and thank you for it. Because Gay people are also humans. They deserve what we all call love. HUG YOU ALL LGBT. Last but not least. To that special girl, You're my best friend, my soul mate, my awesome friend. I know family problems are always very hard to handle but be strong. I know you can handle it and get through this hard time. You might not be reading this but i want you to know that i'll be here for you through thick and thin. You're always that special girl. :) Big hugs to you too.

Social Media

I really don’t get why some people just don’t understand what they had done to the Family. Today’s topic for this blogpost will be.. Is Social Media a good or bad thing for the younger generation. Social Media, Be it Facebook, Twitter, Instagram and so on. Is it a good or bad thing? Personally I would say it’s a Yay and a Neh. You people must be wondering why. Why is it a Yay. Reason is simple, You get to communicate with your friends even though you guys aren’t in the same school anymore and so with Social Media, you are able to share what you have been doing and also to catch up with long last friends. And why is it a Neh. As you know, Social Media is for you to do all the benefits as I mention but again there are people who uses Social Media as a source for them to scold or rather vent their anger. A simple example, When I ask someone to do something which is for their own good, they would go online and post how much they hate me and so on. I mean like, hello. What I am doing here is for your own good. Do you really think I really got all the time in the world to do all these shit for you? No. And so why am I doing it just for you? Just because I care for you. Yes. Care. If you would have notice, I am having some Family problem within my Family and Extended Family I give no shit to the Extended Family part because they should not even be involve in this. Let us move away from the topic of the day and focus on one part which I can’t understand and can’t bear with it. Yes, I know I might be too “Over” in terms of doing all these but what I told my Sister is that I’ll take her phone in the morning and return it back to her at night so that she would focus on her Studies. She is taking PSLE this year. We all know how important this exam is. It determine whether you are going to a good school or a bad school. I don’t care whether you are going in NT or NA but what you should be aiming for is to get into a good school and obviously do well for your Exams. Because what you do now will impact you for the rest of your life. And you are taking the exam, not me. Its your future not mine. What I am doing is to help you focus more on your studies. But what my sister post on Facebook is that, why should I take away her phone, will that help in her studies. Part by Part yes. It will still affect your studies. Because you are less dependent on your phone, you will find another source of way to do. Be it watching TV or doing homework. Over time, you will realise that what you’re doing and what grades you are getting is for yourself. Because for the next chapter of your life, nobody is going to tell you and push you. Everybody is focusing on their own stuff. But again, Why would you realise that whatever you are posting on Facebook is affecting our family’s relationship? Do you really want to see this Family fall apart and you’re happy? Because I certainly do not want this shit to happen to me. The Status that you’ve post is really killing our relationship as a family. Shouldn’t you be more mature and accept the fact that you are suppose to do well for your exams and not cause more trouble for the Family? Now that you are starting to lose friends, why wouldn’t you start to “wake up” and start thinking what you’ve been doing is wrong. This is what your brother is thinking, Jolynn. I really hope you will wake up and realise that what we have been doing is for your own good. Because after all the exams result will have a effect on your life.

家家都有难念的经

To start off, I think that without proper ways of teaching is already a mistake. If only my mum took in the advice of mine to cane them and teach them the hard way, this wont happen. I learned stuff the hard way, I know my mistakes and I learn from my mistake. Even if I fail my exams, I still get caning and I would say, those caning made me learn and prove that I can do it. Next, Whatever happened in my family, Lim family. We don’t need other people to come and interfere. If you think that whatever you’re doing is good. Is helping, I can seriously tell you that you really thought wrong. Do you people know the situation? Do you people know why my mum have been crying at night and acting tough infront of us? Do you people know how tiring it is to run a family? Yes, you people are all grown up and know whats wrong and whats correct. You people have pass the Secondary School and Primary School Age but by doing whatever you guys are doing now is really too much. Just because Jowel Lim Complain it to you guys, Do you guys have to come and attack my mum this way? Don’t you people think its too much? Don’t you people feel ashamed of yourself? Interfering with other people’s family problem? Every family have their own problems. Do you know how stupid young kids stuff and we people have to go into this shit just because of whatever they say, we must apologize? When its not our fault. You people don’t have to get involve in this shit so better just back off. Because this is real shit. It involve how people think of my family. If you really want to back her up. Think about it, because its not your family who lose its reputation. Know whats the different between love and over excessive love. What she have been getting outside is because of her mouth. Even though we told her to keep her comments to herself yet she don’t get it deep in her head then she shall learn the hard way. Don’t come and act pity infront of your cousin Jowel Lim. Because it wont work. Once you’re back in our house, you follow our set rules. I don’t give a shit about what you do at the other side, Once you’re back you jolly well behave. The amount of shit you put us through isn’t enough? Why are you being so selfish? Does all these shit really concern you? Back to the overall, Do you people know the overall story before you start accusing my mother? Have you? If not just back off because I don’t need these shit people to come and interfere with my family and obviously hurt my mum. Know your limits, know where you stand. 家家都有难念的经。Seriously, Enough is enough. These night my mum have been worrying so much. Yet you people want to do this to her. You think you people are so tough yeah? Nothing better to do yeah? Let me tell you, You people are nothing compared to my mother. You people got all the time, and the money but my family don’t. Don’t add on to my family’s trouble. You people can have thousand and one reasons to back her up. But I got one question to break you all down. Do you understand the pain of a mother? Question yourself, You people can act all tough out there but the true people getting hurt from all these “insults” is my mother, Look, its my mother not your mother. How do you like it when other people come and attack your mother. Don’t like it yeah? This isn’t your shit so just back off. Enough is enough. I don’t care how many reasons you have, I don’t care how you treat my sister. Go and think about whats right and whatever you’re doing is right. I seriously feel so disappointed. People who are not suppose to be involved is involved. Just back off because we don’t need your “Help” . Instead of helping, you people are creating more trouble and worries for my mum. Know your stand.