Doggies.

Well Guys, After a few days not blogging. Back here for more ranting and this time im seriously pissed off. You guys must be thinking why am i always mad and ranting all out on my blog, well, I guess this is the only platform which i can rant.Today topic of the day, DOGS. mmhmm, why dogs? Basically im pissed off at my dad. Yep, of all people my dad. WOO HOO, Life. Today and the day before he is pissed off at the same thing. THE SAME OLD DAMN FUCKING DOG SHIT AND PEE. He got pissed off because we didn't clear them before we go. Well, i have to rush to school this morning and i was rushing. I only got time to drink a cup of milk before rushing out where got the time to clear right. Then i dont get why my sister didnt want to clear it and left it there for my dad to come home and scold. I mean like wtf. IF you can scold why not just clear it. Since all you can do is to use your mouth to scold. USE YOUR HANDS TO WORK. Actions always speaks louder than words so if you can scold so much why not just use those damn hands to do some work. Thats okay, what shocked me is the fact that without my permission, he posted the photo of my dogs online and ask if anyone wants to adopt them. I mean like what the fuck, Without my permission you want to put my dogs online to be adopted away. JUST BECAUSE WE DONT CLEAR THEIR SHIT, he do such stuff. No one gives him the rights to let people adopt my dog. If he dislike my dogs so much then dont talk to them or touch them. I was in school helping out with the F1 stuff then here he is trying to let my dogs out to other people. fuck it man, No one gave him the rights to do that. Its just like, my sister being hungry then i didnt cook for her and my dad chase her out of the house.  Doesn't make any sense. No logic. So now i dont even bother talking to him at all. How old le still act like a child. Argh. My dogs are like my children. WHICH PARENTS WILL LET THEIR CHILDREN GO JUST LIKE THAT. 

Misses

Well hello hello. Today don't seem to be my day for a reason. Firstly. invited AnAn over to my house to play Mstar, i mean like its normal since there's no school and im completely bored at home and Pepperlunch manager did not respond to my messages about work so i assume i am not involved in any activities related to them. Anyway, im quitting soon cause the next sem Modules are killers, serious killers cause damn, all theory base questions. Loads of stuff to remember. Oh, back to topic. Dad came home and shouted at me for not clearing the shits and pees my dog created. Oh holy dogs. created something so holy. ONCE HE CAME HOME, SHOUTED AT ME. And my damn sister decided to tell my mum my friend came over in the morning. so my mum messaged me and asked me, i explained. She's okay then my dad. other than complaining and posting stuff online, he did nothing. What can i expect right, since he has been saying stuff and doing another sort of stuff. so i am like bitch please. if you want me to do stuff, as the older one, YOU show me how its done. You dont go around bitching about how this and that is done when you do no damn shit. so yeah, i went to clear and there goes my mum telling me off about how i should clear those stuff and not wait till my dad is home and let him nag. Claiming that i did not do anything instead of playing computer games. YEAH RIGHT, whatever i did you guys did not see and there yall mouth go opening and closing. If its not for me who clean up the floor again cause my sister did not clean it properly. YOU GUYS WILL BE WALKING ON OILY FLOOR AND SLIP FALL AND PROBABLY ROLL DOWN THE STAIRS AND I DONT KNOW, ROLL FURTHER? It's all these little little action will make you guys come home in peace not worrying about falling over. Since these little actions are nothing in yall eyes then why should i do it. Totally waste of my time. Whatever it is. I'm pissed. he is pissed. my mum is pissed my sister is pissed. I probably should just run away from home. Which i wont actually. Come on, i love my bed. I got my bed why would i run away from home right. Oh well, life. When on the way home after walking to waterfront with AnAn, i was checking my whatsapp and come across HuiYun's Chat. I don't know, maybe im being over sensitive? i dont know, i just dislike it when people ignore my messages. I know they read my messages but why cant they even bother to reply. I mean like take 5 mins or even lesser than that to reply to my text will cause you to lose a few piece of meat from your body? I dont know man, Just thinking about it annoys me. Maybe this friendship isn't that strong as it used to seem? Azmirah with her own dance crew, HuiYun with her crush and friends. Maybe what i am doing to make them realize that they actually have a true friend here is useless. Probably i should stop trying since trying is nothing in their eyes. It just seem that im just trying too hard and can be easily forgotten. Judge me for all you want cause friendship is important to me. Now i think about it, True friends. NAH, THEY DONT EXIST. No matter how hard you try, if they are not your true friends, they won't be. Becoming moody because of these. how weak. Oh well, life still needs to go on. Gym tomorrow with my bro. Run and forget them all stress.

Emotions,

Hello guys, Back here blogging just before i go off to bed. Been quite affected by something recently. Its all about love. Just recently, i got a date. Yep, i got a date. The person isn't a She but a He. He's from my school and really amazing thing about this is. I don't even use any kind of applications to know about him. I think when the person come, they come. So yeah, i was all ready for it but when i told my close friend about it, He changed. yep, Totally. I don't even know why. I told him way before that me and him will never get a chance to be together, The max we will go is Brothers. It will never hit the tip top Relationship part. He said he understood me but now, He's being all so affected and became mean, He uses mean words on me telling me to go gym with my boy when i already told him i will go gym with him, I mean like, Just because i have a date doesn't mean you are not my friend. I dont get it why, Some people told me, " You made a wrong friend." I dont agree to it. He's a really good friend but i guess. sometimes, people gets overly attached and becomes like this? I dont know.. one, I dont want to lose him as my friend. Two, i dont want to lose my boy. Both are equally amazing and my treasure. I feel.. lost. I am seriously. lost.

Holidays approaching.

Well Hello hello there my readers. Sorry for not blogging for a long period of time and now i am back blogging just a day before my exams tomorrow.  My final exam for this sem. Events Panning logistics, just by the name, you should have know that its a very boring paper because of all those logistics stuff i have to remember but oh well. Tomorrow shall be the day where it all ends.  One month holidays come next and gonna try work as much as i can to earn a big amount of money so i can save and spend in case of emergency. Been long since the last time i blog, Lots of feelings been kept inside. Now i guess i can let it all out. Right, so as much as i would not like to say this but i feel a little annoyed when i ask people out and they NEVER fail to turn me down. NEVER fail. Maybe out of 10 times i ask them out 12 times they turn me down. Y'all know the feeling yeah, You cannot say anything else except, "Nevermind, Next Time."  It's always annoying to be turned down but as humans, you will tend to get used to it and eventually forget it. You won't want to ask the same person again because you know deep inside that you're gonna be turned down again. So to avoid feeling disappointed and pissed off and annoyed and whatever negative feelings you will feel then,better to not ask them again. This year has been something, without knowing today is already the first of September. Exactly 9 months ago, i was with a guy i thought is the right one but then, nope doesn't seem like it. Now, i feel so scared to be very close with someone just in case they fall for me, especially when i don't feel same towards them. I don't know whether i am sending them a wrong signal cause when i fall for someone else and you obviously want to share that happy feeling with your close friend however, your close friend feel hurt and tries to change you with all those flashback. Yes i know we have been through a lot together but please, we have made it clear that we will never be up to the standard of being a couple. With me having a partner doesn't mean i will forget you or i will totally replace you. There's nothing to be worry about just that i am attached to someone else but i am still your close friend. I think its quite obvious when i am set for my target, i will work towards it. No matter whatever you say that tries to change my mind, it won't work. Lastly, MONEY PROBLEMS. Again, how i wish money can just grow on the trees. I seriously need to work on keeping cash in my wallet and not waste any more money on stuff that is wasting it. I need to start thinking of the hours i need to work in order to earn that amount of money. I need to. Sighpie. Money money, grow on those damn trees for me to pluck.