Prelims

A Photo to let my readers laugh a bit, This is exactly how Olympics divers look like when they dive. I still got a few more of them diving, but meanwhile, just this will do. Today was very slacky, During Chemistry was sitting behind with Fatin reading our own blog post and laughing at ourselves. I read my posts previously, i just cant stop thinking how dumb i am to like report everything i do for the day in my blog, i mean its super boring for the readers yeah? agree? cause i agree. :P Prelims is just tmr, SS paper and Maths paper1. Good luck to all my readers for your upcoming project/ prelims. My August Wish is to have a room of my own and make everything in my room my own style. My Left wall, i shall draw S I S T A R on it and paint it. Get a glowing tape and tape the floor so that it glows at night. Most importantly a table where i should all my things. Also maybe a noticeboard, so that i can pin up my timetables, pictures etc. For that, got to wait. AND AFTER PRELIMS, ITS GONNA BE ONE TOUGH MONTH BEFORE N LEVELS. JIAYOU EVERYBODY!!!

Lost magic.

Sense link, A Lost Magic in Fairy Tail. Fairy Tail is a very good Anime, you people should watch it. Its the B E S T. Best. Some times, telling my family things is very tough. Telling them about a girl, they keep saying about me being gay. WTF. i mean, hello?! im telling you about a girl and you're constantly talking about me being gay. LIKE HELLO? its something serious ya know! i know that they might be joking but.. not now ? Sometimes, i am just annoyed that they cannot stay serious. But being too serious is not good either. but nevermind. Leg got stab by Durian and it hurts like poawnfckvwo002159i94yt78q9weiokdmnv. But nevermind, its getting better now. :)

Perfect.

ZhengWei next to me :) Currently missing him, He is so cute i swear. He acts just like GuoHao, but better. Anyway, Prelim this coming week, i havent study any shit for anything. Whats wrong with me. Gonna Study tmr. N level Chinese Oral tmr, wish me luck man, Passage reading is the problem, Picture is okay. Conversation is also alright. Just the passage. Plus, i am the first one to go. VERY STRESS. Recently lots of problems keep coming to me, All about love. Love, why not? Why come and hunt me when i am in this period where my exams are super close. I tried controlling myself. i really did, but i guess my control wasnt strong enough.Maybe what i want isnt love is someone who is always there for me and listen to me. aish, Gonna move on, Maybe not used to be single. now really needing someone. Argh. Looking at my twitter background, Two photos of me wearing your jacket, Do you rmb? i was angry at you but i still put on your jacket and took 2 photos. i was never really mad at you before. just cant bring myself to. aish. I should stop thinking all these and go and take a 30mins shower and sleep. buai people.

Dr Feel Good.

Lots of thanks to my readers, Thanks for going through this tough time with me, Really really thanks a million. Maybe a shout out perhaps. :P Thanks Tea Hui Yun, MY BELOVED METALFLIP. heheh, Thanks for reading my blog and actually try to understand me. Took a lot of photos with Huiyun recently, Leaving Riverside soon, gonna take more photos and keep them as memories. I cant believe without swimming, i still look like malay. Mdm soh walked outside our class during recess to talk to us cause HuiYun and I are not allowed to be there, LIKE HELLO? WE NOT EATING THEN WE CANNOT STAY THERE MEH? THE MALAY GIRLS CAN WHY WE CANT, NOT LIKE WE GOING TO STEAL ANYTHING RIGHT.-.- tsk, anyway. Stancent leaving for bintan tmr and he didnt tell me, At all. Tsk, such bitch. Heh. but i still love you. heheh. muacks. :P Enjoy your trip hor. Prelims just next week, i havent start studying, Fuck my life, gonna start studying tmr. Jiayou everyone! :D Going to watch FairyTail now. <3

Kentrick n Nigel.

Nigel and Kentrick, Although i am not close to either of them nor did i talk to them before but they are so sweet! dont you think? They were once together, but i think they are back together again. LIKE SO SWEET. i see their love story like very sweet, after that, i think to myself, If we have a chance, will we still be together like how we did before and take a really sweet photo like we used to? I guess the answer is a simple and quick one, No. I guess you wouldnt want to either. But at least we learnt something from the relationship, did we? im glad to know you and actually send you to sleep next to me. Jump onto your bed everytime i go to your house and sleep. Talking nonsense with you even though i know its stupid. But i know i have grown up from this experience. I know how to control my emotions and eventually take care of someone, leaving you might be my biggest regret but now to think of it, nope. its not a regret anymore, its a good thing to do, Letting you explore the world with your another half while i concentrate on my studies and eventually move on with life. Even though looking at sweet couples like Nigel and Kentrick makes me feel tempted to get a new person soon but, to think of all the troubles that i have to go through again. Life's great without a partner recently, i dont have to report everything i do. although its boring and most of the time, lonely. But i am better off without a partner, i got my amazing friends around me. i love them a million!

Door of hope.

Everytime God closes a door, He will never fail to open another one for you. True enough, the moment god close our door, Another door opened for me, I just got to step in. Its good to see that there are people supporting me. THANK YOU PEOPLE, Love you a billion. I ran out of photos to post so i had to google, amazingly they came out with a Rainbow door so, i decide to post it and share with you people. Reason being, Door is a main part of a security purpose, Rainbow is what everyone wants to walk into. Open the door of Rainbow, you never know what may happen behind the door of rainbow. If i were to have this type of door at home, i will be really happy to go home and stare at the door.  Cant wait for my mum's friend to move out and chase my sister to the other room, but she wants to rent it out. Personally i find it annoying, i mean. i am already, 16? and i cant have my own room, which is annoying, If she move out of my room, my room will be cleaner and very neat. i will want to repaint my room, paint a new colour, perhaps white, One of the wall i will DIY, paint myself. hehe.

currently watching a video of Pasta OST, the song i guess. From SNSD, Named Forever. some part of the video reminds me of you.Now, You seems happier, seeing that you're happier, it makes me happy. IT BRINGS OUT MY HAPPY FEET :D

Happy.

Somehow, this photo really makes me think. If one day someone comes back at me asking how are you, will i text him/her such a long text. It must really hurt for the people to type this long message. Your first month was on the 23th. Which means you two got tgt on the 23 june, Faster than i thought, No wonder people tell me that just move on he can forget you that quicky and get into another relationship in 2 weeks, why arent you going to move on? Yes. i had been with Kewei, another slut but i wasnt serious with him, NOT SERIOUS AT ALL. i mean, who would want to be very committed in a relationship with a player? Knowing it wont last long putting in effort is just like pouring pure water into the drain. Whatever it is. Videocam with stancent last night, he is really a nice guy. although he looks weird online but, i guess he is okay in real. He is like supporting me from the back all along. I just realise that. HEHE. thanks! <3

Promises.

Promises, are they meant to be broken or to be kept? A pinky promise, text promise, word promise. To some it matter a lot, but to some, its just... Words that mean nothing to them. "If one day you feel like crying, call me, i dont promise that i will make you laugh but i can cry with you." Waiting for someone to tell me this. Although i hardly cry with anyone, if i did, i must really trust you and believe that you'll be here for me for life.    Today, i really found out that, having someone to really care for you, really matters. It does not matter to me what other people think about me. Whatever it is. True friends are hard to come by. Congratz on your first month boy, Seems like you're really happy with him rather than with me. People told me that if someone moved on too quicky after a long term relationship, they are not serious about the previous relationship. I guess so. People are spreading rumors that i see one, i love one. If i were to do that, dont i have MANY ex? I wonder what these people actually want from me. Whatever it is. I dont really care. Move on and die.

I love you.

I said ooh~ jiltuhage haji mayo
Ooh jipchaghage haji mayo

-2NE1, I love you.



Loving u~ u~ na eotteokhae what should i do?
Jojeori andwae nae mam gojang nabeorin heart
Jeongsin mot charil mankeum
Boy i’m falling in love with u~ u~
Na eotteokhae what should i do?

-Sistar, Loving u

Shocking.

THIS PHOTO IS TOTALLY NOT LINKED TO THE THINGS IM GONNA SAY LATER. SO. enjoy the chicken in the photo while you read what i am going to say. :)

Here goes,

I did not stay with Guohao for 1 year just to prove that Relationship can last more than a year. THAT IS TOTALLY NOT TRUE. I promise myself that whoever who spread this rumor will get it from me. Spreading the wrong stuff when you got no idea what actually happened. Its just too bad that you cant hide for long. You know, Paper can never stop a fire from burning? Thats exactly how truth works, and thats why my blog link is, paper-madeof-trust.Burnt means burnt. If you got no idea about certain things, you better keep your damn mouth shut. Dont act like some bitch and go on and on spreading rumors. Although there will be people not believing you but still. Grow up will you?

Anyway, happy birthday to my sister. she had been singing happy birthday to herself since this afternoon. LOL.

MeeYee

THIS IS MY BELOVED METALFLIP. I know, we look like couple, act like couple but we're just best friend, or maybe one day, we'll be lovers but it depends on Feeling :) Today is super awesome, and word of the day, MEEYEE.  yes, Loo Mee Yee. MY CLASSMATE. Apparently, she won the singing competition. I AM SUPER PROUD OF HER, i cant express how excited i was when she was on stage. The excitement is. overwhelming. Saw Andy there too. he is super cute, i swear to god. His smile is a stamp, and he is super nice, Guy/Girls who gets him is super lucky. A cute guy with a nice heart. :) I look not bad in photos recently 'cause i got over you. I danced so hard during DanceOff the other day and Shouted so hard for MeeYee. My heart is empty now. :D Now, worry for Prelims and N levels. After that Work and prepare to leave for genting during November. We shall see how things goes, :) Anyway, just for your information. I do crazy things when im with my bestfriends, hehehee

True.

Until the day I truly get over you, it's the day when I already stop caring about us.

Walked away.

Hi, do you still remember these two kids we got together? I wonder how my children doing at your house, I miss going to your house and jump on your bed and sleep. Met up with Alanny yesterday night just to talk, he asked whether i want to drink beer or not, i wanted to but i said no. Somehow, he never fails to make me feel better. I told him roughly what happened, he told what he thinks about you and ben. I sort of agree but i dont want to comment much. He told me Sky Monterro on Facebook said that he envy us, for being able to make our relationship last for 1 year, yes, 1 year. I didnt want to listen to what Alanny was saying 'cause i know it hurts. but something he said, stuck me. And that might be the reason why i cant get over you, The watch we got. He said, " why are you still wearing the watch?" The day that we got the watch, i promised myself, no matter what happen as long as the watch is still working, i will be loving you. It is still... working perfectly. i guess, i will keep it away and get a new one. Today's dance i didnt manage to give all out because it was awkward.Maybe one day when nobody is at home, im gonna do what i do best. DANCE RANDOMLY. HAHAHAHA. thats what i do when im bored,stressed up. It has been long since i last do that. My mum would scold me for being crazy if she sees me like that. I've never been like this before, Never in my entire life. Feeling so awful for days. Even when my dog pass away. i got over it within 1 day. I guess, the memories we created is everywhere, Even when i come out from the school gate, i look at the busstop, i would remember you wearing green with your bag, with earpiece on and playing IPod.  I thought i see you outside my school the other day but it was another guy, Everywhere is strained with our memories, my bike too. I remember you hugging me from behind when i ride you to waterfront. Complaining how pain your ass is. To think of it, i remember you say, Who are you to make me cry. i am, your boyfriend.  but now, Who are you to make me cry? I see people worrying for me to get well, i know and i appreciate them and i know i got to STAND UP and move. Vanni see me feeling sad and she dont know what to do, All she can think of doing is to hug me. HuiYun is always comforting me, i really really want to move on but im just stuck in time. I only cried for a relationship once, and i told myself to never cry because of a relationship, Now, i cried for a few days because of you. You dont. bother. anymore. You called me a kid, a immature one.. i accept the fact,yes i am a kid a immature one that still cares for you and cry for you.. People who talk about me behind my back, you told me you just take it as a opinion, you said you're still protective over me. how i wish you could just scold the hell out of them, Who are they to judge me, They think they so perfect? huh? Nicholas, Joshua. you two think you guys are so perfect? If you're perfect, you aint suppose to be talking about people behind their back. After a cry, everybody sure do feel better. Stronger. Maybe thats why you no longer feel anything, numb. Another reason for unable to forget you might be because, everytime i tried to forget you, a voice at the back of my head tells me to give you a little bit more time. My angel. I agreed with what joseph said, "I want to walk away, forget everything, die or to say. Lose my memory." Maybe after that, i will become what i was before, Cheerful. I WANT TO BE CHEERFUL. I WANT TO. BUT I CANT. AND THIS SUCKS. I AM NOT SUITABLE TO BE SOMEONE WHO EMO A LOT , 'CAUSE I DONT LIKE EMO PEOPLE BUT I AM GETTING SO EMO RECENTLY. IM GETTING DEPRESSED. I DONT WANT TO GET DEPRESSION. NOOOOOO.

It's. Official.

It's over and officially I feel numb to it already. Slept a bit and woke up feeling numb to things people tell me.

Tears flow.

Tears fall like water tap, but its worthless now. No matter how much i cry for you, you are already used to it, You got no special feeling for me crying. Karma i guess. :D but its good, cause you're moving on. i am happy for you. Your sentence that said that feeling for being boyfriends are no longer, I stun and feel that its dumb for me to be still holding on to this torch for you. Gonna extinguish it myself. I am gonna let myself off one day from homework,friends and stuff just to re-visit places we went and refresh and reflect, One last round of the big day off and i shall forget about the feeling i once had for you, For now, we're still friends. If fate really allow us to meet and fall in love once again, it would be the day when i set myself free for a day to re-discover places. The first place i would re-visit is marina. The place where we sat down with water behind us and took photos. Another would be Henderson wave. My first time been there, with you. on our 1st year. Hugging you today on the bed for the last time, makes me think of all those times at night where we hug to sleep and waking up to see you sleeping with a pig face. Funny,cute and mine. i remember telling myself that i found someone who is able to live my entire life with. But i did a big mistake which makes us who we are now, i regretted but, its too late. :) Loving someone can also mean to let them go and find their own happiness. Yes LuoGuoHao, i still fucking love you. But after the day i set myself free, i guess i no longer will. But if fate decided to bring our love back, i would open my arms wide enough to embrace you, welcome you back to my arms,my bed and most importantly, my life. Dont worry about me, i wont cry anymore. too much tears for the past two days, enough is enough. im done with. If only, i can hear you say " I Love You" again. i will tear like some mad kid, but nah. you wont. no longer will.

Tears.

Crying and crying. What's the point of tears when you lose something that you no longer can have it back? I told you not to cry over split milk but look what on earth am I doing now. Crying. I feel weak. So weak. So weak that it hurts inside. My tears is made out of 1% water. 99% feeling. Buck up DARY LIM CHEONG KUN. prelims just this Wednesday, jiayou. Don't let all these shit put you down. Love yourself more than you love anyone. What's meant to be; meant to be. Nothing is to be rushed. Tears are important. I will feel better after every cry. Gogo to myself.

Once together.

I wouldnt be heartless but sometimes, i am just being forced to be heartless. Yes dude, i still cant really forget you and not to say about the feelings i have for you. Although both of us have decided to move on with life but i am sure one day, like you said, you will come back for me. and i am sure you will. This is wrong but i still truly love you. Looking at our photos just makes me tear a bit, i know, you wont even care because i am the one suggesting to break up. Sorry but, we should just let this "hatred" we have in our heart down and continue being friends. Should we? I know your current guy HATES me but i dont really care, what i care most is how you really feel about me. Although people say When your ex ask you to be friends after a break up is like a kidnapper letting go a kid and asking him to keep in touch. Maybe after you read this post, you will understand why i decided to make you hate me. 'Cause i want to see whether you really will hate me, that prove our love and perhaps friendship but its not that strong to be tested. Its creepy isnt it. Im still wearing the necklace you got for me, seriously love it, dont bear to.. throw it away. Starting to tear a bit but I AM A STRONG BOY, i wont tear, :D i rmb the time when i tear with you badly on my bed, with you hugging me from behind and telling me that no one will understand me except for you? i feel that my life is completed but after you got your New phone with unlimited sms and internet everywhere you go, you changed.Apparently to someone, i dont feel familiar with. Someone i dont feel safe with. I know that you get together with Ben not really because you like him, because you want to move on as well. Texting with you now, IF both of us are really really in love, we will still be together one day, and i know, we will. i guess. Thanks for the memories you gave me for this 1 year! :D Saranghaeyo.

One or another

Really long since I touch this app. Blogger on iPhone. It's awesome 'cause it allows me to blog even without my computer on. Which means I can blog anywhere I am. Awesome. Recently. A lot fights have been going on, it's really sad to see the fights that involves me as well. July is certainly not a good month and I didn't expect it to be as well. Prelims is just next week hopefully I can do well, jiayou. Looking forward to genting trip this November. With VANNI HUI YUN KE WEI GAYA AMIRA KE WEI MUM. IT'S GONNA BE HELL LOTS OF FUN. I swear. I can sense that fun is heading our direction. FUN! Gonna work during oct so that can earn money. Gonna work everyday. Heheh. Go for genting and save up for a new laptop and a camera. Okay. Off to bed. Nights lovers.

Annoyed

I get REALLY REALLY REALLY annoyed when I am hungry. Just take today as an example. In the morning, I had a bowl of Japanese rice then lunch I didn't eat anything. By the end of social studies focus lesson, I already start to feel hungry and annoyed. Moving on, going on twitter and see guohao tweet he want go clubbing. Like SERIOUSLY, even though you say you want go once, you will be addicted to it like Edwin and Bryan, but that's not the point. The point is, his boyfriend uses his phone to come and scold me. BitchPlease. -.- I don't wanna say a lot but. Guohao, if you're reading this, take care of yourself, be careful of him cause he isn't as simple as you think. He just want your ass to be his to fuck with. Anyway, today will be the last time I contact you, from tomorrow on wards. 11/07/12 I will forget everything about you, EVERYTHING. Even if I can't. I will force myself to. I will dance it all out, I still care for you and still worry for you but we're no longer. Thanks for the 1 year worth of friendship. Bye pal. Take care. :)

English Oral.

Totally tired but just finished one component of N levels. English Oral is down, i hope thats the last oral i will ever take again, Seriously. Chinese Oral on the 31st of July, Wish me luck man, i suck at doing chinese oral, english oral is okay but Chinese isnt, i hope i can do well, Although the examiner didnt prompt me for like 3-4 questions but i only got prompted once, The Whole thing was about Fishes, and saving the world. Passage is about this lady named Lily Tan going to this Mr kang's Fish store in the market to buy fish and they go on about how the prices increase and the lily tan's daughter is strongly into protecting the fishes and sort then mr kang is going on about his son being a graduate and is involve in saving the coral reefs and its kind of a way for his family to put something back to the sea, Picture is really really stressed up, I hope i didnt screw the picture up because the teacher only prompt me about whether the fishes is fresh, i said yes, as seen from the lady's face and the lights in the market, it is as if its in the morning. then conversation is creepy, their face like stressed up like that, and i was like, ohhh nooo! Anyway, at Ke Wei's house now, Took the photo up there yesterday night when we went to buy Mac. Heh. Going Mee Yee house later to celebrate her birthday, Havent got her gift but will get her gift soon, then can pass to her on her birthday itself on the 16th. Her 18 years old birthday gift. :)

Tired.

Home and tired after a long day in school, i will break down really soon. Shouldnt have got myself into a relationship at this time, It is just like me digging my own grave and step into it and just lie there and let it bury me bit by bit. It hurts and hurts and hurts, Slowly. Im starting to hate myself. Although he care for me, came all the way from hougang to woodlands with his wounded leg. Im too tired already, starting to think too much. Really tired from all the words and numbers i have been seeing the whole day. English oral tmr, good luck to myself. No good luck from you then im gonna give good luck to myself. I shall go and sleep now. good night world.

Stuck in between.

Rilakkumar, One of my recent favorite soft toy. Just now went to Kiddy Palace and saw this BIG MICKEY MOUSE, at, 49.90 OMG i want that, i wanna save and get that. Stitch as well. So many to think of but i want them all, Gotta catch 'em all. right? I want a big stitch,mickey mouse,carebear,domo and other cute soft toys. Need to save and buy it! Anyway, KeWei just sent me home after Movie and dinner with Christopher. Totally sucks to be in between, I know KW likes me, chris too. butttt.. i am stuck in the middle, I just got out of a relationship and really dont want a relationship. I might show extra concern but that doesnt mean i like you. I dont want to be stuck in the middle. ARGH. and i dont want a relationship yet so, Friends and brothers are fine.

XueYi and AnQi

Study and study and study. What else. Next 3 month will be hell and studies, Night academy starts tomorrow! Ending school at 8.30pm, Normal lesson ends at, 5.30pm night academy starts at 6-8.30. 2hr 30 mins. i hope i dont die after my focus lesson, Normally im already dying but i guess i will just need to hold on till oct 5th! I know i can do,Jiayou to myself. Relationship and stuff at this time is totally pointless so dont bother asking me whether i got a partner not. Dont get your hopes too high if i ask what would you do to get me. Cause i just want to know how i rank in your list. Anyway. Anderson Cooper has, at long last, publicly said he is gay. Three cheers to people coming out, YOU PEOPLE DONT HAVE TO FEEL GUILTY OF WHO YOU ARE BECAUSE YOU'RE BORN THIS WAY. :D WHETHER PEOPLE LIKE IT OR NOT, ITS NOT UP TO THEM TO DECIDE YOUR LIFE. LIVE YOUR LIFE TO THE FULLEST. #SUPPORTPINKDOT!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

Happy birthday to my sweetest Cousin, Annezza. She is my closest Cousin i ever had, i can swear. Even though i hated her i think when we were younger. SHE IS SUPER UNREASONABLE LAST TIME, But, now she is WAY DIFFERENT. hehehe. i share my troubles/secrets with her, none of them is leaked out. hohoho.This is a short post so! BE HONOURED!!! Once again, Happy birthday! :D

Pinkdot'12

Pinkdot'2012. For those who still unsure what is Pinkdot, Pinkdot is a event yearly to celebrate the freedom to love. Whether you're Lesbian,Gay,Bisexual or Transexual. All of us, human being have the rights to love. Everyone here on earth deserved to be treated fairly. Im one of those small lights there down in the BIG PINKDOT. more than 15000 people celebrated this event together, Next year, i hope, My parents and relatives will join me in creating a better Singapore by joining this event with me. No one choose what they want to be, We're all born this way. Its just like a newborn baby without proper limps, You cant expect them to be like other people. Someday, Pinkdot will need a bigger space to handle more people coming for this event. Someday, I will hold on to the person of my dream to this event. Be it a guy or girl, I want to let everyone know that no matter what you are, you have the rights to love. Someday, no one will need to feel guilty of what and who they are. Together in this BIG community, more than 15000people joined us in pinkdot to celebrate the freedom to love. I believe in future, 377A will be no longer. Although there will still be people judging us from what we do, but we do it for ourselves, we dont have to care about what people think about us. We do what are happy with. Gay people have the rights to love people like straight people, their love is just as beautiful as other kind of love. I hope someday will come soon before we know it. We should always, celebrate the freedom to love and 377A shall be no longer. See you guys at PinkDot'13 . Next year, it will be bigger and better. LOVE !