Update!

Hello everybody!
Back here today to do a quick update on my life as of now! As many of you should have known what happened between me and Calvin, and for those who don't. It's official about 3 months back, he decided to let go of this relationship but everything is alright now! It's understandable what he wants after one of my friend told me what happened after he broke up with me, if y'all want more information do contact me personally cause i don't want to be here spoiling his name in the "market" (If there's any readers that are people like us) Fast forward after the day he broke up with me, i had project stuff to do and a lot of work and time went into the project. Went for the group presentation in front of a 120 over people in the hall, presenting for my topic, Chinese New Year 2015. I can say it's pretty scary at first but eventually as i go on and talk and present to the crowd, i feel more relaxed. It actually felt quite good to have people listening to you while you present. I mean like, all eyes are on you. however, it is also quite scary when i comes to any mistake that you do. People will not remember the good things that you have done but they will always remember the stuff that you did wrongly. Fast forward! After the presentation had been done, we received the topics that we are suppose to do for our final year project! I am really really upset with the team (CNY team), i can't take how the location, target audience and some stuff that was decided have to keep on changing. It's like my topic is one of the group that can't make up their minds. Fast forward! After all the report have been submitted and the holidays started! Before the actual start, me and Ka-Shing made our way down to KL for a short getaway. I've been to KL but haven't really had the chance to visit the Twin Tower, knowing me once i got my mind set on one place that i want to go, i will make sure i visit that place. Sure enough, i visited one of places that is in my bucket list! The KLCC.

I am really amazed by the way this is built, and it's kinda sad that it started raining the moment i walked out to take a photo with this tower.  I guess the experience of getting there is really amazing, i never thought that i would be taking and trying the train services in Malaysia, i can safely say that i am impressed! Although it's really confusing of how to get to certain areas but i guess the experience is what that is valuable during the trip. What's visiting a country if you just take the cab most of the time. You couldn't explore places and experience how the local feel for almost everyday of their lives. 

Let me just be slutty for a moment, never done this before but lets do this. HAHAHAHA. Undies advertisement.

Just Moving backwards 2 days before my KL trip one of the dramatic drama happened within my friends that concerned me. I was really angry and pissed at what happened at that time and kinda screwed the people involved quite badly. Although everything is okay now, it leaves me with a scar that i believe can never be healed in a months down the road. Those who knows, knows. Alright moving forward, the holidays start 2 weeks after the KL trip. Now i'm in the mist of my holidays and i'm stressed out because of money wise, Christmas is just around the corner and i haven't completely buy everything for everybody. I have to start doing them ASAP!!  Yesterday, went out with my baes, went for movie and a lot of catching up done! I'll just let photos guide y'all through.

Indeed we had a great time together, loving every moment spent with my baes!

Before i end my post, what is a post without my selfie right! I'm gonna spam the last part with my selfie, if you're afraid of eye cancer, please don't scroll down! JOKING!

I'm loving my red hair btw!

Moving forward

 Hello guys,

Back to update once again. I've just read an article on Facebook about break ups. True enough, i was dumb to be crying over something i have already lost. Times where i really care, asking whether he is home and all. I should have known that he stop putting in effort. Life goes on. I believe God is good, God is fair. Once he closes one door, he will open another. No way am i ever gonna be sad over something i can't have. This time round, i will be stronger than who i was. I will be different from who i was. I won't show much care and concern. People change, Hurt causes change. There is no way that i can stay as who i was because i have been hurt enough. I can safely say, from now onwards, i will be leading my life all from the start again. It's tough because knowing that there won't be someone who will be at home waiting for you and for you to call yours. But hey, Who needs a guy who don't appreciate what you have done and calls you annoying? I am all about being positive, Some people just need to look into the positive stuff more than the negative stuff.

We could only be mature when we solve things like adults. We could only be human when we understand how the other party would feel. We could only know how to love when we put in the effort to.

Last night, i cried all over again and told myself. "Hey, if he is making you cry and he don't feel a thing about it, why are you still crying over him. He can't see you cry, he can't feel how hurt you are." I made myself feel better but deep inside i know, there's just something about him that makes me love him so deeply.

People might say that i am just trying to change his mind. My answer is nope, i am not trying to change his mind cause as much as i want him back, i wouldn't want to anymore. Yes, at the point of break up i wanted him back so badly. Once bitten, Twice shy. He can do this to me without feeling anything, he can still do it to me again in future.

I guess, i am starting to really mature up and start to think like an adult. I want to solve problems like an adult. I quit my job because i know, whenever i go back there. There will be memories that are stained at certain areas of the outlet. Moments where i just surprise him, moments where he tries to scare me, moments where we have some time alone. I stop myself from feeling awful, i make a move. As much as i don't want to, i have to.

After breaking up, i slept for 2 hours and today, i felt so much better after sleeping for so long. Indeed it feels way better. I stop thinking about things that i shouldn't be thinking of.

Age is just a number but it shows how mature you should be. Sometimes, when your age doesn't match with your maturity level, its time for you to do something about it. People tell me, he will get into another relationship soon and everything will repeat itself. I guess, that's what heartbreakers do. They come into your life, making everything look so damn perfect, they got tired of you and start to screw you from inside. You just felt like everything is crumbling down but for the actual fact, it's just a new beginning of the new you.

Thank you, for giving me such wonderful times together and by screwing my thoughts, feelings and who i am, i can firmly say, i give up and i am someone stronger.

Memories will be but feelings change.

Heartaches

Hello guys,
Today's post will be rather draggy and mainly targeted at my ex boyfriend. Yeps, you read the word, "ex". Time flies, its coming to the 4th month of us being together but like what people always say, Good things never last. Yeps, i guess that's true. I felt so happy being together with this wonderful guy. Although he may not be perfect but in my eyes, he is already what i wanted. Just within these few months, we have created so many wonderful, special and awfully unique experience together. From seeing him stress with projects to him going for internship to him ending his internship and starting school again. It's been really a rough ride together but i used to believe that with our determination, we can overcome everything together.

But sometimes, things don't just go exactly how we want it to. There are moments where we fight and quarrel real hard. There are also times where what i really want was just time together, hugging and cuddling on the bed together. Promises are made. Promises are broken.

This was one of the best relationship i ever had. Holding his hands, knowing that his hands fits perfectly into mine. It gives me so much warmth and assurance. I know all these while, it has been tough on both of us. 

All these memories that we create together are really one of a kind. Thank you for making the effort to come down to my school to find me during my project days. Although it has been a tiring day for you but i am really glad and happy that you made the effort to.  

Some stuffs may not be special to you but to me, all these little moments when you take the initiative to do stuff for me, to surprise me. I love them and i really appreciate the effort. The times where we can just go on skype or facetime and stare at each other's face for minutes and talk about random stuff. I can never fail to just stare at you and get lost in those eyes.

 I love traveling. It feels wonderful and special when i was at bangkok with you. 

For all these memories we have created, it all has to come to end on the 29 Sep , 0050. 

Thank you for all the times that we have been together, it is rough but i guess now i think you have enough of me. Enough of my nonsense and enough of me planning things for you. Maybe sometimes i think i was caring but to you, i was being annoying. 

With this, Thank you guys for reading.