4/2

4 years passed like blinking of an eye.  From a small boy that came from ADMPS to Riverside, although there are some regret of coming to this school but with my classmate, i feel that its worth it, although we do have conflict between each other but the bond between us still remains strong. Sec 1, came into riverside feeling fat and ugly, meeting all sort of weird people in class that have different opinions, people of all different background with a common goal to move on and finish secondary education. I met this Girl named VanniTan, yes, she is the worst person i ever known in Sec1, being called "gay" all along through out half the year in sec1. Yes, i am soft. i come from a family with more girls than boys, what do you expect? However, when time pass, from a enemy it changed into friends and bestfriends. Sec2, sitting with Azyzah, Izwan and Vanni and we named ourselves. ADIV. The legend, we laughed at everything and literally made a joke out of everything and laughed the loudest in class. Azyzah was my best partner, i can bitch about her all day long, Remember, the fight we had was one of the silliest, She felt offended when i called her a Bitch. It was funny and it pass and moved on, i moved and sat with Eliyana, She is shy, too shy but she is very very friendly and funny, Remember her asking to read Horoscope everyday in school. End of Sec2, got into class 3/2. Went to get my long pants, the moment when i was trying out my long pants, i felt that i have grown up, i got to learn how to behave like a grown up boy. there comes 2011 where i met all my new classmate from class 3/2 it wasnt the good class in NA stream but  it was awesome. Sitting at the back of the class waiting for Mr Lee to pair us up, Must be different gender and different sec 2 class. Sec 3 was my best year in Secondary school. sat with Atikah, she is the best partner you can ever get, She is multi purpose partner, She was the first girl to know that i wasnt exactly straight and she hear my problems and helped me out, She turned in my human pillow after sometime and i lie onto her. On thursday she will bring food to share with me and i bring Nuggets from home to share with her. On 090611, i got attached with GuoHao, i told her about it and she told me that she got attached with her bf on 070611, moving on with the later part of the year where she start to skip school, i am well-known for nagging at her for not coming to school, not doing POA, not doing maths. But, all these nagging didnt helped her , she moved on to Sec 4 NT on 2012, this year. Yes, i miss her company but now im sitting with Venitha, she is not that awesome but at least she helped me in my education and give me advise when i want to do something. Although she dont support Gay Rights but she still listens to my problem. This year was the stressful year where all the stress comes in, N level. At first it was a few hundred days to N levels now, its just 2 more days. Tmr is the day where i have to bid good bye to 4/2. There are conflict between us but after all, we are still a class. Lastly, i would like to mention two person, Azmirah and Huiyun. They are like my best friend, after 4 years, i realise the meaning of best friend. Azmirah was always there and never fought once, not in the entire 4 years, She supports GayRights and she listen to my troubles and advice me, She saw me Cry, Laugh, Smile, Shout, Hyper, Dance, Run. I hope, we will never lost each other's company even after we moved to ITE/Sec5. As for Huiyun, i only got to know her during sec4, i dont rmb how but somehow she listens to me. she dont really give me advice but she is always there. Although she dont come to school recently and im annoyed by that but, she is still nice. Secondary 4 's life is coming to an end, Jiayou, 4/2.

Perry the platypus

Perry the Platypus, the cutest animal i ever seen. If you got no idea what is this weird animal, its called a platypus. His name is Perry, This is a cartoon in a cartoon series on Disney Channel. I like the way platypus does not do a lot. ANYWAY, notice the color of this platypus. This color just remind me of my class VICE CHAIRMAN, need i bold it? okay, yes, VICE CHAIRMAN  so, when you see this  what do you think of the person, yesyes? Uphold good standard of respect and responsibility however, my class's vice chairman is none of those. Just this day, where he suddenly came to school with a new specs. the color of the fame is the color of this platypus. Worst of all, he quarrel with teachers. Wow, yeah. how nice. Whatever it is, just leave him to be, and talk about something else. N level just next week. Cant wait to finish the papers and go and work. Need a lot of Money. Need to buy quite a number of things and travel to Genting for a number of times, with different people. Heh. This year travel a lot.

Bubble pop.

 Am beat. Gonna sleep once i post this post and bath. Slept till 2 today, reason being, i was tonning the night outside with HuiYun, From 1 am plus till 7.50am. It was awesome. Although we practically spent most of our time at Woodlands Waterfront talking and pretty much lying on the floor looking at the sky. She is probably the first girl that i ton till sunrise. but the moment i reach home and look into the mirror and see my dark circles, i am so freaked out, its so black like i punched or something. Thank god i got some sort of " mask" thingy to apply later when i go to bed, gonna wear that mask till i wake up. Its kinda effective though. i just brought like 100 of it for 5 dollars on Gmarket, not bad actually. Was actually thinking to myself whether i should continue dancing or just stop where i am, i am not doing very well. Sometimes i just feel like giving up. How i wish i got a group or something that we can practice somewhere but nah, seems like its hard. Gonna work once N level end. Gonna be some kind of hardcore worker. Need to earn quite alot for myself to spend. Plus on 31st Dec gonna go Shopping with HuiYun and Azmirah in Town area, gonna bring money and go for dinner and count down together. Cant wait.  5 more school days to N level. Im starting to feel really not safe because of me POA. i am afraid i cant do the paper, i dont feel confident enough. Haiz.

Dance Off.

Took from Facebook. SPOT ME.

Today's dance off is the first dance off that is super boring. The playlist is weird, top 20 and the rest becomes voting on the spot. I mean, its so boring when they skip the songs others wants to dance. I rather have the DanceOff standard that melvin used to do it and not this. Its totally boring, was so bored and Bryan smsed me and pissed me off further. I wasnt staring at Jeremy and he claim that i was. i was staring at someone else. Yes i did stare at Jeremy the last dance off but this time i didnt, i lost the interest in him dancing so i changed target and partly because his Girlfriend looks as if she is going to kill me. Its scary alright. Well Jeremy and Bryan can be spotted in the photo above. Jeremy, the guy at the most Right, wearing black top. Bryan, the guy standing behind the girl that is bending all the way down, (no idea why). Jeremy leaving for America at the end of Oct so maybe i shall go meet him and have dinner together and watch a movie after my N levels. Provided his Girlfriend allow. His girlfriend like worry that i will take Jeremy away from her like that. JOKE.

Piercing.

Yes, i have decided to go for a piercing. NOT TO MY TONGUE, but ear. First hole. I know, after 16 years. My mum dont allow me to get a piercing but im gonna get one anyway, i am not trying to be bad kid or whatever. I wanna experience how it feels like to have piercing, i often see girls putting on earrings and those nice ones like, Letters, Peace,Stars. It look so amazing. Although mum will be angry about it but ya know, she's gonna accept it overtime and eventually tell me to get a nicer earring. thats how my mum work. As long as, i dont pierce my tongue or any where else, she's okay, i guess. My dad used to have piercing too and im so gonna get one. Maybe going to pierce with Shawn since i told him not to pierce until i pierce with him. MUAWHAHAHAH. He is feeling so excited for it but, i say only after N level then pierce and he feel a big disappointed but still, he gets to pierce. Im acting like his papa. People call me gangster after i say i want pierce. This Jerron asking me to pierce two. Insanely crazy. One is enough until i feel that i can go for another one. Ohwell. See how it goes.

WishList on 20/09/12

My first WishList made public. Here goes.
1) A SpeedBike.
2)A DSLR
3)A MacBook
4) A S3
5) My own room.
6) A piercing on my Left ear.
7) A Tattoo on my left wrist. "Peace"
8) My own room.
9) Travel with Friends to overseas country.
10) Make a girl feel really secured with me.
11) Make a guy feel really secured with me.
12) Kiss a girl.
13) Kiss a guy.
14) Sistar to come to Singapore.
15) Have my very own DanceGroup
16) Join Teenage KPop Dance Battle 2013.
17)  Decorate my own room.
18) Save up till 2000 dollars in my bank.

Xiaxue is pregnant

Credits goes to Xiaxue, xiaxue.blogspot.sg. 

Yes, Xiaxue is pregnant and i feel super happy for her. In case you dont know who she is, she one of the famous singaporean blogger. And she work together with clicknetwork.tv to make videos named Guide to Life, i watch every episode of her's. Its amazing and when i saw her tweet that she was pregnant.

Bestfriend.

When we first talked to each other
I knew we would always be friends.
Our friendship has kept on growing
And I'll be here for you to the end.

You listen when I have a problem
And help dry the tears from my face.
You take away my sorrow
And put happiness in its place.

We can't forget the fun we've had
Laughing 'til our faces turn blue.
Talking of things only we find funny
People think we're insane-If they only knew!

I guess this is my way of saying thanks
For catching me when I fall.
Thanks once again for being such a good friend
And being here with me through it all.

- Rachel Ellis

Good friends are hard to come by and hard to find. Once you find them, you ought to take care of them, be there for them and most importantly never betray the trust they had for you. 

Love.

Its was your love that taught me how to love.

Hello everybody, pardon me for my ugly photo. No choice, at that time i wasnt feeling very well and exbf left his jacket with me so i wore it. At that time we were having some quarrels. 3 months 5 days, since we last say " Baby, i love you. " Yes, im still stuck at the moment while you had moved on. Was reading your tweet just a moment ago and i realize a fact that hit me so hard. What we had for the past 1 year, was nothing but just you enduring with my attitude. I wanted you back but now it seems like theres no point in doing so. You got more friends than you used to have and having me was just what i called extra. Just now, was at Christopher's house. He lay on my tummy, for a moment, it reminded me of you lying on me. I nearly burst into tears but i knew he wasnt you. You said you didnt change, its life which changed. You said to let fate choose our doors to go to. I read the notes you typed in my phone, You said you will be there for me everytime i need you, forever. Forever never exist. Now i just need a simple hug from you. If you want fate to change our destiny, then i shall change fate.

Bad day.

A bad day is just a day where you have been thinking more negative thoughts than positive ones. 

I had bad days too, its just that i dont show it. However when i dont show that i got a bad day it does not mean that i dont have a bad day. Sometimes i  just need a listening ear that i used to have. I need someone who can tell me what to do, how to solve my problems and most importantly listens to me nag and nag about my day. People tell me to not think about those issues at this time of the year because my N levels are just 3 weeks from now. i tried, its not that i didnt try to not think about it. 3 weeks 3 weeks.

Dog lovers.

After watching this video, i feel that, As a Singaporean, We are always being told to care for Animals, stop animal abuse. We care for animal, we love animals and we need them to keep us company. Sometimes we got to work or study for long hours a days and having a dog at home or a pet at home allow us to relax, and play with. However what i don't understand why aren't we allowed to keep two dogs in our premises. If the dog is causing a lot of noise or trouble to the neighbour , i can understand that but in this video, they do things that are not a real trouble or noise to the neighbour. Unfriendly neighbour. This old man in this video tried to apply for the two dogs to stay with him but always got rejected and even asked to send the dog to SPCA. No offense but this is what our society is turning into? Heartless? Have we as humans or authority think about how the dog would feel? They have feelings as well, its just that they are not able to express it in form of words. That doesn't give us the rights to decide where and how they are going to live. Its not only this uncle that experience this problem, there are many more other people that have this problem as well, Not only keeping 2 dogs but breeds that are not suitable for HDB. Other than sending them to SPCA, it seems like there isn't any better to cure this problem. In this video, the uncle is sick and his days are limited can't the government give him special rights to let his dogs stay by him? WHAT ON EARTH HAS OUR SOCIETY BECOME?! thats the biggest question. Its funny how our government want us to stop animal abuse and love animals more by giving talks from Primary school. After we start learning to love animals now they are asking us to send them to SPCA because the law don't allow. Law are dead, People are alive. Where is our conscious? I am not blaming this on the government, i talking about us, human in general. Sending dogs that stayed with us for most of their life, they already treat the place they stay in as their home. They love and care for us, just like our parents did. Sending our dogs away are just as similar as sending your parents to the old folks home. Would you live in regret for the rest of your life because you are asked to send your dog away? By sending them away, its not easy. i done that, it hurts a lot. The moment where you have to let your dog down on the floor, allow the staff to take over. it hurts. I was standing outside of the office, looking at my poor dog walking in into the space assigned, it hurts. It feels as if my dog is screaming at me, WHY! WHY ARE YOU TREATING ME LIKE THIS WHEN I LOVE AND CARE SO MUCH FOR YOU. It hurts. Are we already too concentrated on improving our living condition that we turn immune to feelings around us?

Dance.

“We should consider every day lost on which we have not danced at least once.” 
― Friedrich Nietzsche

One day without dancing is like wasting one day of your life. No matter what, Listen to a piece of music and dance. Dance like you're the star and you shine on stage, all the audience can do nothing but to envy your wonderful moves, moves like jagger. Sometimes even if you're not the best dancer, when you try your best, All efforts placed in, everyone will still see you as one good dancer because of the effort. Love, Before loving someone, Love yourself. You may had been hurt before but let you fall in love again because you can. Sing, sing at the top of your voice, do it like you never did before, Let everyone hear you. Everyone in this world. Live, Dont live for someone else, live for yourself. You live to experience how life is like. Not everyone can feel life full of gold and love. Just live simple yet a meaningful one. I can't live a day without dancing, without loving ,without singing and obviously without living. Everyday can be meaningful, we just got to look deep inside. Even someone who had a bad day, at certain part of the day, he can be smiling. Just because he think too negatively about that day so he is too involved in thinking about how bad his day is. Just like today. Although she decided not to join me tmr and go to msia , heart sink a bit but when i see that 3 words. THAT 3 WORD. i dont know how do i react. I stoned. I stun. I got  happy? Even though its in a friendship way of that WORD, i know i am still special in her heart. Somehow. 10 zeros behind a 1. I dont know how to explain how i feel. Maybe a feeling of extreme happiness? Maybe a feeling of extreme Love?

Dear boy.

Hey dear Leonard, I would like to let you have this post. We're not together, not yet. But we are already quarreling a lot, i gave you a lot heartbreak in these few days, i am truely sorry. You gave me your care and concern, i really appreciate it. Thank you, thank you very much. But im just sad to say, i am not your guy. I need someone who has the time for me, i need someone who can be there for me whenever i needed someone. Sometimes, when i needed someone, i dont know who to turn up to. Im glad that you loved me. If we can be quarreling so much even before we are in relationship, i couldnt imagine how ugly it would turn out if we are together. You just came back to my life apologising and say you love me, i believed you. i really do. You say you miss him, its a good thing, you should concentrate with one and go for him, wait for him. You can be waiting all time for the one to come for you, you got to go for it. I dont deserve your care and concern and even, time. Its partly because i will hurt you over and over again, you wont be able to restand me. All you get is disappointment after disappointment, heartbreaks after heartbreaks. But im sure you will get someone who love you just as much as you love him. Jiayou. You can ignore me now, i can understand if you were to ignore me. Chase me out of your life like how you did before. -hug- Jiayou waiting for your guy. Sometimes, you got to see the wrong guy to get the right one for you.