DIE :(

It took me great courage to admit my feelings to you but they seems to be dying and hate start to form in me. ♣

ALOHA people. So dead. Maths paper1 make me die le. :( To add on, SS. == total nightmare. SS, revise from yesterday night wrote a whole lot of notes and wake up at 5 to revise till i found out that its thurs today. so went to take a short nap. then wake up at 7.20. went to prepare and went to school. Start SS at 8.45. i see the first few question i want faint le. then last part. i took the healthcare part. i write a lot for Singapore healthcare then britain healthcare,13 marks, i write very little. ARGH. depressed! after SS. sit outside the hall and wait for Maths paper1. Paper1 starts at 11 and end at 1. 2 hours of maths makes me go a bit hirewire but oh well. hah. i am soo dead lo. i have totally no idea how to do. TMD. just go and die please.== i dont like maths and i dont want take maths, argh. this is just paper 1. paper 2 coming up somemore with Geo paper together. seriously just go and die. SS and maths. two must rmb a lot of things. then now Geo and paper 2. argh. my brain like dying sia.After paper1. i and Justin sit at the stairs while waiting for Vanni. see so many people with their depressed face.. :( sadden. Also asked James after exam want to go swimming or not. he say okay. :) so long never talk to him le. After Vanni came. we went to slack like some happy kid that have finish all of our exams. == Justin followed. this is the first time oh. after go cwp etcetc. went back to school. Laughed like some mad idiot cause of wary. damn epic. me,justin,eelin,fiona,vanni,kaiqi. laugh like some shyt. HAHAHAHA. first time see Eelin laugh till like that.then at piano corner. Wary so epic. making a fool of herself. fall from stairs. make me laugh till want die.== then mary ow come extra.== After that go home. so tired now. no mood to do POA. just wanna sleep. HMMMMMMMMMM. okay im gonna sleep. Muawhah. wokaybye people. Mum driving me to school tmr! yayness. ^^

Jealousy kills

i got jealous. I know -insertname- dont belong to me. I am just jealous.♥

AHHH. just "finish" revising for SS. so tired. even though i sleep this afternoon but still i am tired. Gonna revise maths later before going to bed. planning to sleep at 12 today.i got distracted just now! by -insertname- . i got jealous just by seeing -insertname-'s status. Obviously -insertname- got someone that -insertsex- like. why am i even bothering about what -insertsex- do when -insertsex- dont even give a damn to what i do. It's okay. at least i know -insertsex- got someone else, someone WAYYYYYYYYYYY better than me. i am happy. First was Facebook, now Phone. Gone. So tired of caring. Dont fit. Impossible. This is what i always tell myself when i fall in love. Its always the same, Impossible.-insertname- will never be that blind. At first i thought that -insertsex- is talking about me till i found out that -insertsex- isnt. so i went to gratz -insertsex- and go off. i am so extra.-.- so what if -insertname- dont post. why am i even wondering what -insertsex- did for that day?! ARGH. I swear this is the last time i text -insertname- Reason is, i lost -insertname- number. ^^ HEHEHEHE. If you ever find me smsing you, this post isn't talking about you. :) sorry this post a lot of "insertname and insertsex." :P Dont blame me. i lazy to type out everything. so yeah. GODDDDDDDDDDD. i am so lazy to start on maths. D:< Oh yes, i suddenly remember. The last time i went out with -insertname- so many other things that make the outing seems so sucky. Whatever it is. i bet that is the first and last time i go out with -insertname- i hope -insertsex- all the best. FIND YOUR LOVE ONE SOON! ♥ i am giving you up.i also hide all of your post on my wall so i dont get to see them and get emotional. hah. okaybye. needa continue revising.

MT!

What say reflects dearly on your appearance to other people. ♥

Hello everybodyyyyyy. Its so dark now. its gonna rain! Its raining man. ^^ Today had my MT paper. It was okay. not that bad. Except for the paper1, i write wrong in the letter writing, then chiong like mad. hand tired. :< Compo i chiong. finish on time. -happyhappy- Wrote about something that happen in the bus that piss me off. ^^ Paper2 quite okay. i finish in 1 hour then spend the half hour sleep.the weather is so perfect to sleep. >< but tmr is killer paper. >< SS and Maths paper 1. Go and die la. two very tough paper together in one day. want my life is it? ._. I havent do POA homework which is due on friday.Gonna do it tmr. Raining le. i wonder if you bring umbrella with you. i am worried. : Hmmmm. TakeCare alright. >< i want go sleep but lazy move around.hmmmm. i guess sleep awhile no harm bah. so i can study tonight. BURN MIDNIGHT OIL! ♥ Okaybye.

English,over.

Your smile still got worth me going crazy for. ♥

hello everybody. its late in the night now, 10.51pm. Quite late to me le. : Gonna sleep once i post this. Had English paper 1 & 2 today. Not bad. Having cheena tmr. Jiayou to those who are weak in Cheena, like me. @.@ I rmb during the Exam, there is this 4-1 guy. he keep dropping his things. so annoying. HoeChin keep laughing. Just now went Yishun and do Maths with Carzyy. i guess i am ready for Maths paper 1 this coming thurs. >< oh yes. The above photo. P6 and now. the different. so big. P6 one is during the graduation party. i miss 6Gr. Serious. After MidYear gonna plan a 6Gr class outing to somewhere. :) hmmmm thats it for me today. im tired. okay bye world. ♥

Tags. ♥

Prove that you're better. Cause you will never be perfect. ♥

Havent start revising! omgawd! how. i think i am computer addicted. GOD. Need to off once i finish this post. i swear.Serious.Apparently this post is to Tell this Bitches. that if she can do a better job than me, do it. Prove it to me. P.s/ Bitches<- i learn from Atikah. Instead of using bitch, she taught me to use bitches. ^^ Yep bitches, If you shiver upon seeing my name, then dont see! :D pluck them out. Dont go pluck flowers okay? Cause i scare later you get caught uh. Haiz. Pity. xD I aint lonely. i dont care you got the other bitches or not. aint my problem. Just Read between the lines, Yes, literally. ♥ My sister went like. "eh kor, this girl very pretty leh on her facebook but its a pity that her attitude like sai." in chinese. All i do was, laugh and laugh and laugh. Kesian. Sometimes i really wonder why am i wasting my brain cells arguing with brainless idiots. Always the same, Gay gay gay. Think of something new alright? Gay is so old already. I am perfectly awesome with the life i am with now. I dont even count you as a friend so this fight gone or here, aint my problem. Sis also say that she is just jealous that i didnt draw something for her. Aww. dont be jealous alright? you're too "chio" for my drawing. "chio" till CMI. :) Compliment. take it or leave it. I sound so guailan now but i dont give a damn. I didnt mention names so yeah. you can take it as if i am talking about you. You know? i am not perfect so. i am spending time typing this. ONEDAY when i become a perfect human being, i wont spend time doing this. :) okaybye! mum going to buy dinner. i think. ♥

Blogskin done ♥

Showing how ugly on the outside ; proving how beautiful in the inside. ♥

hello everybody,once again, i spent like an hour plus to fix my blogskin. Now with my photos on the top, tagboard and a new profile photo. :D Still Finding ways to improve it. Support support! :D Suppose to study today. Gonna do so later. at 3. After my lunch.Weather very cold today. Even with the fan on, my arms and legs are cold. its like in Taiwan. ^^ English paper tmr! need to revise the Formal for letter to editor. i am super not prepared for the exams. ARGH. Gonna leave my hair as it is now till june holidays. :D After June holidays. leaving it till EOY. :D kay. i am hungry now. Suddenly i think of that day de party. WeiSheng damn guailan. say Angeline my gf. NO LO PLEASE. == Used to. now, no.NEVER. WeiSheng, you want,you go jio la. Dont pull me into the water together with you. Kaythanks ♥ I guess thats it. i am going for lunch now! wokaybye! ♥

Your message

Showing how much i change makes me feel weird. ♥

Hello people! Just reach home from Msia. Went to celebrate Mother's day. One week in advance. went to eat TangShiFu. GOD. the food there, i have totally no idea how to eat. But the drink is awesome. Royal Jelly. ♥ the bottom is warm but the top is cold. i wonder how they did it. hmmm.i will try it one day. Also, i brought a new pink top. happyyyy. Finally can wear M de shirt le. no need buy L. WEEEEEEEEEEE. Took some photos. Gonna post them up soon. AS SOON AS I GET MY USB CABLE. I am gonna study tmr. no more slacking. Tues English, Wed, MT. Damn it. Thurs SS and maths. TMD. two weakest subject on one day. GG. -stab- BUT its okay. after this 2 weeks. i am gonna bloody hell relax. :D After June Holidays, gonna get back to work and aim for EOY. After EOY, Go thailand! WEEEEEEEEE. After go Thailand, start saving up and go Taiwan. i miss the weather and the food there. Hmmm. and maybe go and find WeGa. He damn cute uh. hah. say my smile very 迷人。 -happy- First time someone say that. So happy today. ^^

This morning. i send you a sms. you replied. i miss you. I really do. Asking to up meet up soon. Your answer is, see how. i know that see how means no. Its always the same,isnt it? Getting tired of this and that. I am jealous that someone added you and tries to flirt with you. i dont like it when someone flirts with you. i will get jealous, i get jealous easily. Don't blame me for that. cause i love you. You might be sleeping now, 1248am. sweetdreams! ♥

i get off topic too easily! omgawd. Anyway. Saw Jordan comment on KK's status that says, "i like hot guys ♥" Jordan comment, "Me~ ". I straight away went like WTF! Jordan, Hot guy?! OMGAWD please. dont be so thickskin please. you are in the cute side not hot side. Hot guys means 6P and muscle etc. with a handsome face and awesome hair.

JiaRen playing game now. i am so bored doing nothing. JiaRen cute sia, i always ask him, "got miss me or not?" so thickskin. :P gonna meet up with him soon. ^^ with kevin. the homos. Okay im stopping here.

Puke.

I came to dance dance dance,i hit the floor cause thats my plan plan plan. ♥

i woke up at 3.45am just to go to the toilet and puke. how awesome. I was dreaming about the party. then suddenly feel like puking. i tot it was in the dream. so in my dream i went like. go take plastic bag! in fact, its real life. i woke up suddenly and go to the toilet. Suddenly everything came out. Gross x1000000000000000000000 it came out from my mouth and nose. GOSH. This is like first time in my Secondary school life. Never thought that i would puke till like that. I wash the floor, my mouth and nose. then walk back to my room. Took up my phone. JiaRen msn me. i didnt care and went to facebook.Post that i just puke. how awesome. LOL. Wanted to go Twitter but too tired. so went back to sleep.Gonna start studying later at 3.30. so sian sio. see books. i want to die.hah. kaybye!

BBQ.

Supposely to say 'hi' but end up ignoring. ♥

Hello everybody. just reach home from the BBQ. WeiSheng's BBQ. At first i went there. i saw Angeline,doro,bl and adrian. i give that sian face. And i heard Bl went like. 'he also got come ah?' In my mind i was thinking. yup. im here. what can you do? After WeiSheng's mum talk to me. Tell me to let down all the hate. and she is sorry that because of WeiSheng thing, me and Angeline fight. Then i smile. She went again. 'zhen de hen dui bu qi.(seriously,sorry)' then i smile again. Suddenly i see Zheng xue they all. ^^ ZhengXue tried starting the fire.he stood there for about 30 minutes. i got tired so i went to the badminton court. sit there. i see the uncle and one other guy play badminton. Suddenly Weisheng came over. He talk to me. i went like. er... okay? Then LiNing,Kevin,JiaRen and SiYun, (P5 and P6.) say they want play badminton. LOL. then they went to ask the uncle. not bad uh. they play. Quite fun. :) After that RAIN! move everything to WeiSheng house.the rest go for blk catching, i lazy go. so i stay home with Kevin,JiaRen,LiNing and SiYun. around 8, kevin went home. WeiSheng house quiet nice leh. i wonder why he dont want go home. except for the fact that he sleeps in the living room.other than that. still okay what.i dont understand why he dont want go home the other day. anyway. at 10.i sent JiaRen home. in case something happens. After sent him home, i went home. currently chatting with him.Everything to him is knowledge. sure become a sucessful idiot. ♥ im tired le. i see my bed. its calling for meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. ♥ im going to bed now! CHAOZ!

Hate{?}

Everyday, i bring the sun around,sweep the clouds away, Smile for me. ♥

I just need somebody to loveeeee. i. i dont need too much.♥

i look so ghostly in this photo. I miss Kirsten uh! :( Her photo album so many photos with me >< HAH. Awesomely awesome. Okay. back to my main topic,Hate.

What's the use of having hate? Does it make you feel good? Does it give you some sort of power?Point is. All human hate. but the depends on the level of hate you have on that person. Hate can the dumbest thing you ever know. No joke. i watched this Channel on YouTube. She is so inspiring. Hate dont make you look smart. instead it brings you down. Showing how dumb can you be. True enough. Its dumb. Instead of having one friend. you have one hater. What's the use. They say to treat people the way you want them to treat you. Apparently. this fact have no effect. Instead of them treating you back the way you treat them. They double the payment. Giving you double slap right in your fucking face. Just to say. Don't Bitch around. One point, You can read off anything. They have the rights to put anything on anywhere that belong to them. You can read it off and you can just ignore and walk off. It doesnt mean you have to comment on anything. putting mean comments. Seriously. it just show how immature you are. If dont want to be offended then dont offend somebody at the first place. Don't give that fuckface after they pay you back.Because what you asked for it. Dont blame anyone. What truely matters is whats inside you. What makes you a person. Nobody is perfect. but they are still finding ways to be perfect. Even the nicest person can have haters. Sometimes thinking too highly of yourself just show how stupid your life is. Not pointing at anyone or anything now. You can say that i am talking about you but truth is. i am not pointing fingers.

Send all of your SOS.☻

Immature

Only when you start forgiving,you can start learning. When you start learning, you will know what's the meaning of "immature".♥

Hello everybody. haven't blog for quite some time le bah? i think so.11pm le. I have no idea what to write but yeah. went cooking yesterday at Amira house. so awesome. supposely to give the recipe to Mdm ow today but she didnt come to school today. Joining the Salad making competition. Grouping with vanni. Uploading this photo here but its like taking forever. I have no idea why. its just too slow.i feel like sleeping le. oh yes. Just now WeiSheng Sister chat with me on msn. Oh god. she is so sensible but very kpo. Keep asking who i like. Since she likes to kpo then i also kpo with her. :X i ask her who she like. then she keep going like. (can......i.......er......chooseee......er......choooseeee.....er........aiya i very nervous now....) then here i am laughing. xD So i said. okay. you tell me who you like. i webcam with you. since she wants to webcam with me. it was a fair trade. and guess who she say she like. == she say. (can.....i....choose... u....) i stunned. seriously i did stun then i laugh. she is the same age as my sister. if she be my gf. trust me. its like me steading with my sister. Epic. she keep forcing me to go to Weisheng' BBQ. She say his mum want to see me._. OH HELLYEAH! the photo is uploaded.this photo is taken just now. bored so. yeah. I am gonna bring rock candy to the BBQ tmr if i going.cause she say she want to eat. i just saw 11:11 then it went away. Ohyes. i want to dance sia. suddenly feel like dancing. HL did the dance. like finally. HEHEHE. i am going out again later. i dont want stay at home lately. dont know why. : okay bye!

sunrise.

The sun slwoly sank behind the peak of the Santa Ana volcano,sending gentle rays across the surface. ♥

hello people! So tired now. my eyes very tired too. Wore contacts for the whole day without getting caught. Its blue. WEEEEE.Currently smsing with Cherian. i have completely no idea how to pronounce his name. but it sort of looks like cherish. Hah. i have been in a very good mood lately. i feel so helpful out of the blue. i still got summary to do! sian x 1000000000 i lazy ah. i want go lie on the bed. xD im gonna wake up at 5.30 every morning now. ^^ so i can feel fresh and i can do my homework. Listening to SNSD. omgawd. when the hell is MrTaxi coming out sia. i feel so sad sia. :( oh yes. i got cheena need to do. i never do. ah whatever. i do tmr. ^^

i deleted you on facebook as well as Msn. i see no point on holding this flame. So yeah. since i dont really mean anything to you. so must well you dont mean anything to me too. Rightrightright? oh well. whats done cannot be done.

i just did the Genie dance. LOL. fun sial. the Seohyun ending part is damn awesome. i like. but i think Seohyun dont fit the Mr Taxi style. Seriously. SeoHyun is more for Cute type like oh! i like oh! uh. so cute sia they all. Run Devil Run Also not bad. Seohyun also look cute in RDR but Mr taxi i see the Dance version. she look too sexy for herself. ummm.Skirt too short! but sooyoung looks totally awesome with MrTaxi's outfit. i like the theme,Mr taxi. their outfit is yellow like NY's taxi. i cant wait for the MV uh. okay. i want go lie on my bed while i wait for Cherian's sms! wokay bye.

What the hell?

Think before you type. ♥

Seriously. I said. if you not happy then dont read! Whats the problem with the people here?! ohmygawd!

Pissed.

○ I know i cant survive without you but i know i have to. ○

hello! today's post no photo. lazy plus no mood to put. im so pissed now. crying is my only resort. it has been very long since i last cried. First,Good friday. went tonning with WeiSheng. went home around 5 plus because around 4 plus his parents saw him so he ran away. i went to find him but he is no where to be found. Till saturday midnight. thru out everything. This fucken bitch, Angeline. step one ah lian attitude. i am not scare of writing her name here cos this is my blog, not happy then dont fucking read it. okay? just STFU if you want to read. if not fuck off. Sorry for using so many F word. She gave that one ah lian attitude when she and weisheng isnt that close. Please ah. want find trouble go find somebody else kay. dont come and kpkb over here like one mad idiot. You arent even close to weisheng then you suddenly appear and go gaga about it. Please uh. go and die please. == i go malaysia with my family you huanlo. i know la. . :( whatever == Today, Tues. i am so fucked up. apparently when i reach home. i saw my house like some fuck house. there is shyt and pee everywhere. and bit and bites of paper on the floor. i was okay with it at first until i came into my room. i saw my iphone charger and my samsung charger. BOTH SPOIL! because my damn fucked up dog go bite. i can swear im gonna send her away. seriously. teach also cannot. beat also cannot. Gary say im a pet lover and i cant say this. but wtf. if you are in my shoes. who wont be pissed?! i change 3 times le leh! 3 fucking USB le. and i even stop her from coming into my bed. i knew i had to do something. i went out grab her and teach her a lesson that she wont forget. i had enough. im gonna make her sleep in the kitchen tonight. no more mr nice man. being nice just sucks. and i suck at being a niceniceman.


-insertname- also asked if im okay. i say i am. but -insertname- dont believe. so i went like, anything uh. i wanted to sms -insertname- this morning but i didnt. i knew its impossible. even if its possible. it wont last. cause just look at us now. we dont even talk for more than 10 sentence in our conversation already. all we do is. hi bye. end. thats it. i wanted to start a conversation but when i think of the replies im gonna get. i went like. ah forget it. i dont know if -insertname- is reading this, but whatever it is. im still gonna continue living like i always do. i know i changed. i freaking hell know i did. i became colder to everyone else. i start to build my guards. everyday my guards start to build up. The trust i have in people is dying. I never thought of living everyday like this but i have to. Those caring words were no where to be found. Maybe its just my destiny.


my only way out is to cry all the way out of this world. off to somewhere where i truthfully know i belong. It is so close yet so far. I wonder how many people will remember me if i am gone one day. i really wonder. i remember the smiles i paste on people's face. those bright smile. Im fine now. Really i am. Exam in a few days' time. im gonna concentrate and after everything is over. im gonna live like i never did. ♥

2.4km.

Never thought that this would happen but it really did. ♥

hello everybody. i am VERYVERY tired now. after i blog. im gonna sleep. Trust me. morning too lazy to make nugget for school so went to bath and went out.Reach school feeling so sweaty. @.@ After the class door is open i went in to listen to music. everything in the class is dark. awesome.slowly when people come in the class become very bright. Listened RDR and Genie with Vanni, && MR TAXI! ♥ FT was Boring. Maths was okay. Phy was shit.Recess is homework plus japanese food. English was sleepy. PE just stay in class and watch DespicableMe. cute sia the millions. MT pass very fast. Chem was awesome. i became a Chem teacher and teach Jane. she damn cute sia. i talk to her in English,she talk to me in Chinese.She dont understand the chem thing then i teach till she understand! Molar molar. ♥ After that. went to RP for 2.4. THATS WHEN I GOT VERY TIRED. Zimin cried. almost all Chinese dancer cried because they got silver instead of Gold. come on. Silver is better than nothing. Cheer up yo! ^^ 2.4 is so fuck. but i won jesselyn and Ben. WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. fuckyeah. ♥♥♥ okay im out. bye!