Promises.

Are promises meant to be kept or broken? i guess, you've broke our pinkly promise. BUT I HOPE NOT. Even though its very lame, i know. Promises. One word with BIG meanings. I'm trying and hoping to get over you soon, its hard but i'll try. Its like even though you're violent but, you're cute and caring, sometimes. 3 posts in a row talking about the same person. oh god what on earth happened to me. MOVE ON WITH LIFE MAN, Daryl Lim. I miss working at Pizzahut, In my weird uniform,Apron,Tight pants,pen,paper together with customers,crew. AND OBVIOUSLY, Pizza. yum yum, This photo. oh god, that day was the best day. Got my contacts on, got on 858 and off to work. Cherrie, Princess(amira),Lina all said i got big eyes and beautiful contacts. I miss them all but no way am i gonna go back there and work. 4 dollars per hour, not high enough i tot it would be higher. heh. Leaving you guys here. OFF TO BED, Schooling reopening just tmr and i need to finish all my work by today.

Hard times

I was born cheerful, said to be the sunshine of the family. I made people feel safe and happy and always hated to see people fawning. Sometimes I just don't know when to let go and move on. I was never the popular kid, well known kid in school. I've many friends but sometime I wonder who are the real friends that I can trust and move ahead with. Good times are hard to come by but it would worth it. I guess. I spend 1 hr looking through my photos and think to myself what I really need and want. Nope, I don't need a relationship to keep myself going. Not do I want a relationship now. Though its almost impossible to be with you but I'll be there. I tried changing my attitude to fit in with my friends but they seem as if nothing much. Effort was not appreciated and not seen. Pointless. Sometimes I gave up trying not because I'm too lazy to continue, it's because my effort was not recognised. " you are feeling sad because you are hearing me being sad, " you don't know my story yet. 8 years and still keeping inside. Shivering once in a while hoping someone out there would hug me tightly. Nightmares. You aren't there. Nightmares. :(

50 Secrets about Daryl Sky

Heres 50 secret about me. -Be honest no matter what! [ONE] Who was your last text from? : Bryan [TWO] Where was your default pic taken? : home. [THREE] How was your day today? : Not productive. [FOUR] Have you ever lost a close friend? : fuckinghell yes. :( [FIVE] What's your brother's name(s)? : - [SIX] Where do wish you were right now? : Right next to you. [SEVEN] Ever had a near death experience? : Nope. not yet. [EIGHT] Something you do a lot? : sms , facebook, twitter, singing [NINE] Angry at anyone? : Er. wanted to but i cant. :( [TEN] What's stopping you from going for the person you like? : Rejection. [ELEVEN] When was the last time you cried and why? : 22-06 morning around 2am. laugh till i cry. Caribbean berry. [TWELVE] Is there anyone you would do anything for? : yes [THIRTEEN] What do you think about when you are falling asleep? : SLEEP DUHHHHHH. YOU DONT SAY. [FOURTEEN] Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? : WAWA, (my sister.) [FIFTEEN] What are you doing right now? : Killing brain cells. HOW BOUT THAT YO. [SIXTEEN] Do you trust anyone right now? : yes [SEVENTEEN] Where did you get the shirt your wearing? : I GOT IT FROM RIVERSIDE SECONDARY SCHOOL. [EIGHTEEN] Have you hugged someone in the past week? : NO. WANTED TO. [NINETEEN] Describe your life at the moment in two words? : Fuck Myself. :) [TWENTY] What are you thinking about at the moment? : Whether that guy will be safe or not. [TWENTY-ONE] What should you be doing right now? : Eating dinner. [TWENTY-TWO] Who was the last person who gave you a hug? When? : My dog, 1 or 2weeks back. [TWENTY -THREE] Who was the last person who yelled at you? : My sister. [TWENTY-FOUR] What is your natural hair colour? : BLACK [TWENTY-FIVE] Who was the last person to make you laugh? : My sister. [TWENTY-SIX] Who was the last person to make you mad? : so long liao ! never go remember [= [TWENTY-SEVEN] What animals do you have? : my house got 2Dog,1chicken,1mouse,1rabbit,1snake,1cow. [TWENTY-EIGHT] Is your hair curly or straight? : Curly. :( [TWENTY-NINE] Held hands with the opposite sex in the past 3 days? : nope. [THIRTY] Do you use smiley faces on the computer? : Yesss. [THIRTY-ONE] Thinking of someone right now? : yes. [THIRTY-TWO] Are you happy with life right now? : nope. [THIRTY-THREE] Are you currently jealous? : guess so. [THIRTY-FOUR] What were you doing Friday night? : Sitting here doing this while waiting for texts. [THIRTY-FIVE] Have you ever had your heart broken? : ABSOLUTELY [THIRTY-SIX] Have you ever broken someone's heart? : GOT =[ [THIRTY-SEVEN] Is there anybody you're really disappointed with? : kinda, only abit ! [THIRTY-EIGHT] Last person you saw? : er. Bryan. [THIRTY-NINE] How late did you stay up last night and why? : 5 plus and thinking of random things. [FOURTY] Have you ever dated someone longer than a year? : got [FOURTY-ONE] Have you ever kissed someone & regretted it? : YES ! :( [FOURTY-TWO] What's your three favourite colour? : red, blue,green. [FOURTY-THREE] You prefer hugs or kisses? : both please. [FOURTY-FOUR] Do you believe in: Yourself? : not really ! Miracles? : YES Heaven? : no, but i believe in heaven & earth green tea ~ Santa Claus? : yes. Kiss on the first date? : yes Angels? : yes [FOURTY-FIVE] What's your nickname(s): : PIG. [FOURTY-SIX] What's your Zodiac sign? : Mouse [FOURTY-SEVEN] What's your height? : 173 cm. [FOURTY-EIGHT] What are you listening to right now? : Electric shock-F(x) [FOURTY-NINE] Are you currently in love? : guess so. [FIFTY] What do you look for in a boyfriend/girlfriend? : as long as feelings is right ... and everything is right thats all !

Never your cup of tea.

I would totally want to meet you everyday from now,but the guy in your heart is obviously not me. I know you arent reading my blog so im gonna post it. Met you two days in a row,although you gave a real bad impression at first, a few months back where you called and gave me a real hardcore scolding but i guess, i have put that rock down and move on. Forgave and forgot. Not long after that. 7 to 9 months later. i saw you at DanceOff, Though you said you were were working on that day, i was annoyed but glad to see you there. Met you on 20/06. Accompany you to replace your Ezlink card at CCK and went to JCube. You were looking at your cute guys and telling me how cute they were. They are all build, cute, handsome. I am none of the stated, Never your cup of tea. Looking at your Facebook photos,smiling at them. You look cute in all of those photos.Just one of the photo, About the mcdonald's with your caption"For You and Me. Special Order just the way you like it." My heart sink, still unable to forget about your ex,but its fine.Even though we would never be together but. i would still be there for you whenever you need me, even if its 3am in the morning. I want to be there to give you a big hug and tell you everything is fine.I want you to lie on my shoulders. I would lend you my shoulders to cry on, My ears are ever ready to listen to your trouble. Just want to let you know that im always here. ALWAYS. Met you today too. Went to your school to study, looking at how serious you were on doing your project, cute yet scary. You are really very caring,you cared about my studies. Thanks, sent you home after that even though you keep rejecting me to do so. the trip to your house was painful yet fun. My left arm still hurt a bit but its okay, Wanted to give you a real big and long hug but we're in public.Maybe someday, i would give you a big hug with a kiss on your forehead. Someday. we will see about that. Though i very much would not like to get into a relationship, i want to date you. Relationship is scary, what if it dont last, i dont wanna be strangers with you. Hoping to meet you again on 22/06(tmr) but you're most likely going for clubbing, can i.. stop you? i wish i could but im no one to you. Sometimes i would like to sms with you non stop but im afraid that i would disturb and annoy you. With your latest Facebook status update, i wonder who is the "YOU" that you're referring to. im a curious boy. If you're reading this, Saranghaeyo, Basketball Rules, Yoyo And Netball. I'll be there.

-Never Your Cup Of Tea.

Staying over.

I guess every Parent would want to help their child suffer what the child is suffering. Maybe its just God's plan, Play along. Just hope and pray that he would let us go and be kind to us. Ever hoped that there is no illness in this world? No Aids, no cancer, no tumor, no infection, NO SICKNESS. Just pure healthy for everyone, i guess everyone would live till forever and not die. even if so, The Earth will die.it would be better for everyone. Seeing all those needles and pain that people have to suffer with. it just hurts to even look at them in this state. BUT THEY NEED TO RECOVER. Another child just got admitted to the hospital, the bed next to my sister's. His name is Jayden. For whatever reason he is being admitted, i hope god would be with you just like how god is with my sister. GET WELL SOON.

Hospital.

Currently in the Hospital. Came here Because my younger sister is admitted to KK hospital Cause of some infection in the body. See her suffering, haiz. BUT OH WELL. JIAYOU SISTAR!

Disgrace

Alex Ong, i guess. the name of this guy up there in this video. i guess everyone should have know about this guy pushing an old lady down the bus. REASON? because The old lady pressed the bell, MAYBE ACCIDENTALLY OR MAYBE SHE FORGOT WHICH STOP. As in the video. Man pushes elderly woman off a bus He threaten to slap the lady. LIKE PLEASE AH, WHO ARE YOU TO SLAP HER. So what you're being abuse since young, it doesnt give you the rights to treat the old lady like this right. Not gentlemanly AT ALL. Seriously, just control your temper. so what if you are emotionally unstable, at least know your manners, SHE IS A 70++ year old LADY NEH. walaoeh. Just think if this happen to you when you're old. ARE YOU HAPPY? CANNOT TAKE IT MAN!!!! -anger- Anyway, spent the whole day out today, legs are tired right? legs. :3 Gonna play pokemon now. :D

Something out of the world.

Never thought that 1 year just pass like this, isnt it awesome? many things happened within this one long year. Overcoming them is one point, how to overcome them is another. But What matters most is the love that is still burning down there. Be it that you had a passing flame, but after all, its the burning flame in your heart. You may pass by some nice people and fall for them but those are just for that period of time. Still in this state at this time, its really a pain in the ass. but you know what? its tough for this 1 year to pass by. Some people just made you regret not meeting them 1 year ago. but theres no point feeling that way already since its so long ago.Met some new people i never knew they exist till recently they started talking to me. in my heart, i was thinking why didnt they talk to me 1 year ago. But its still better to stay as friends. Keeping them as close to you as possible, hold them by the shoulder. HARD TIMES ARE HARD TO GO BY.

Blogskin

Wanted to change my blogskin but i just cant find any that is like nice and awesome but, you know. hehe. i prefer this blogskin better. i think this is one of the blogskin that i enjoy the most. :D if you havent notice, roll your mouse over the photo on top and you will notice that the photo actually brighten up. How cute. Anyway, That guy up there, we're no longer in contact so no point asking me who is he. :3 i am thinking of adding in a tagboard. Should i? hmmm. i forgot what type of tagboard are there alr. Hmmm. give me 3 mins, gonna google it. -3mins- i think i'll use cbox. its settled then, Just now. went back to school for SS and Geo, GUESS WHAT. SS only 11 people came. LIKE SERIOUSLY. outta 42 people, 11 came. WOW. Geo was like. boring. seriously. sitting alone at one huge table. not bad actually, makes me more focus than sitting with someone else. Miss wong was talking about some power nap to hari and i forgot who. POWER NAP, 20 mins. if i sleep. it will be 8 hours. THAT IS SUPER POWER NAP. or is it, ULTRA POWER NAP. im ultra man. and power ranger too. My hair is so long, needa cut it soon. the heat is KILLING me.

Current life

Lots of things happening at one go recently. With N levels coming up real soon. Time to make the decision to go ITE or continue my studies in Riverside. Though I have pretty much made up my mind to go ITE, but my parents and relatives strong disagree with what I think would be better for me. I mean. I am one that can't take lots of stress. Especially if it comes to secondary 5 and O levels. It's already a burning hell now, should I go on and have another year of burning hell? It still leaves me with a big question mark. Though I am pretty sure I am not going bck for secondary 5 if I get 15-19 points. It's a risk. A big risk. I guess it's just walk a step and look out for the next step. Hmm. Secondly, friendship problem. This is a constant problem that I have. Everytime. I'll never make peace with people whom I seriously don't like. No joke. Though I'm okay with Melson in school now, I'll never fit in into their clique. Reason? Cause I'm not into much gaming and they talks about games I don't know and maybe sports which I don't really know. My circle of friends is limited. But what's good is that I have a few great friends around me. Just to mention 4, easily from my brain. 1) azmirah( though I feel like I'm useless when with her most of the time) 2) Ce Xun ( this guy is really unique. He is one of the cute guys I know. I just know him for not very long yet I don't mind showing him my ugly side. ) 3) Marcus. ( this guy is insane with domo and cute guys. He is also cute but. Awkward 40% of the time ) 4) hui Yun( though she says that she don't feel that I treat her as a best friend but I really read treat her as one. If not I wouldn't bring food for her last term) reason why I mention just 4 because I really got no clue who else to credit. :X lastly. Just a note to many. I fall in love easily. I believe you when you say you love me ( hope that im yours) You will make me think of you all day long even though I just get to know you. You're cute though you claim that you're near to ugly. But you're cute in my view. Don't care what others say cause they don't know you. So what if you're fat? It's god's creation and plan. Love the way god wants you to be. I don't know whether you will read this but. I'll try my best to get to know you more. :D

Kiss The Rain.

Havent been updating my blog recently, been busy with my school work as homework are starting to pile up, Day by day. The stress level increases, Never have i thought i am 16 in another 8 days. Feeling older and older everyday. Thinking of a lot of things recently,what am i gonna do if i fall sick, what am i gonna be when i grow older. And thinking of what i really want. Listening to Yiruma's Kiss The Rain allows me to think slowly with pace. Life in singapore is really stressful, everyday you are completing with other people, either studies,work or relationship. Many wish to go overseas to stay, personally, i would wish for the same thing. Going over to another country and stay there. Being a resident of another country, what country do i wanna live in? Perhaps, Canada. Somewhere where life isnt as stress. Standard of living here in singapore is good, there is access to clean water and variety of food. But its just too stress. But oh well. We got no chance to choose where we want to live. Live with it. Anyway, getting my Polaroid tmr, Yay, <3 i feel so sleepy. Gonna meet Alan and GuoHao later to go out... Maybe this is the last one before my N levels. Hmmmm. Oh well. bai

Love?

What's love. I wonder. It has been 8 months. Almost 9th. Arguing a lot recently. I'm tired of all these.

Jar of hearts.

I learnt to live half alive.

house or hotel?

The family is both the fundamental unit of society as well as the root of culture. It ... is a perpetual source of encouragement, advocacy, assurance, and emotional refueling that empowers a child to venture with confidence into the greater world and to become all that he can be.

MARIANNE E. NEIFERT, Dr. Mom's Parenting Guide


I've overheard, just overheard. You are gonna kick me out of the house. i know... its a sooner or later. Maybe im just a pest here. Maybe i should leave. Why and what am i waiting for? since everyone at home see me as a outsider. leaving early when i wake up and reaching home late is better for everyone right? You wont get to see this annoying face of mine. Just.. tell me to leave. i'll leave and i wont be back. Trust me. Went out with GuoHao today. Went to some DIY shop. Saw a lady doing up her very own family photo. Standing by one staring at their faces. Trying to pretend that was us inside. Heart hurt so much when i think of it, i start to think. If they are just being piss because of GuoHao coming here to stay and not paying, okay, i'll pay. i just wish for one tight hug from mum again. I got to stop crying, i look pathetic. If i cannot stand up for myself, who will. I feel like doing up a FamilyPhoto too. i just dont have the courage to go towards the printing shop to print the photos when nothing at home is right. Where's my courage? Where's the courage i used to have? im sick and tired of going home everyday looking at their :| face. i miss the period of time when everyone come home with a big :D i guess, i'll never get to see once of these again since they have consider to kick me out of the house. Just say, i'll go.

Family likeness has often a deep sadness in it.

GEORGE ELIOT, Adam Bede

2012.

I surrender, just kill me. here's what happen.
Mum: i think u have to stop that kind of relationship that have with guohao, as what i told u before, i can be very open minded but that doesnt mean that i can accept and agreed on the adnormal relationship that u r having..
Continues: u shd have better choice den just having him lor. anyway now u r still too young to go into any relationship. If u r having a normal relationship i will accept but not this kind of relationship. what i said yesterday i am serious about it, U better stop this kind of unhealthy relationship with him ur dad got to know about it.
Continues: i know that if i would to send a msg to him directly without letting you know, it will piss you off.. so i gave you the respect to inform and tell you to stop the relationship before i send any unpredictable msg to him.
Continues: so from today onwards, you have to reach home latest by 11.30pm not later den than and no excues and i do not want him to step into our house anymore. i mean it. you really disappoint me, you are such a good boy and dont understand how come you want to get involve into this kind of unhealthy relationship, you will only let people look down on you, its nothing proud of instead it very shameful behavior, so please stop it.
Me: i got no comments. nothing to say. whatever you want to say, just say. since everything you also want to say then i rather keep my mouth shut and just listen. seems like everything i do nowadays annoys you. and you have to comment on whatever i do, then so be it.
Mum: ok if you think it this way den from today onwards i wont talk to you anymore.
Continues: since now i think he is so important and if you are not happy staying with me, you can do whatever you want. but i do not want him to step into my house anymore.
Me: its the fact. you think la. whatever i do nowadays you all will comment, you're just being paranoid. i treat everyone the same. Everyone will have a friend who listens to them and give advice and it so happen that guohao is the one who listens to me and advice me, i got no comment or anything to say since you want to see and him having a abnormal relationship, so be it.i dont have much friends, so i hang out with him most of the time. like that also wrong.
Mum: up to you since this is what you think then i got no comments too. From this moment onwards, i wont say anything anymore.Just remember. 我家不欢迎他。thats simple. i dont want to give you anymore comments.
Me: just try standing in my shoe for once and see things from my view. you will understand. with N levels coming and not a lot of friends. you will understand why i need a friend like that. im not trying to be rude but i just want to say whats in my mind. ever since 2012. you totally feel like a different person.
Mum: i dont want to feed others people son for free... my own children already having such a bad life so i dont have the responsibility to feed others for free even he is closed to you.
Me: i get what you mean and therefore he wont come over. i just want you to stand in my shoes and see my world, nothing is going right.
Mum: i had given you whatever freedom you want.
Me: i dont want to say anymore since you are right. i dont want this to turn ugly. i'll keep my mouth shut alright.
Mum: if its still not right then theres nothing i can do. thats all i can do to protect my 3 baobei, i will keep my mouth shut as weel as i said i wont talk to you or give you anymore comments. and i will keep myself far away from you. i think this will be good you wont get piss off with me and i wont get piss off with you. whatever things you need please talk to your dad, i was my hands off from you.
End.
If thats what a mum should say. then so be it. im sorry, but i'll leave. Since my presence makes you piss off. what better to do than to jump down and die right? or shoot me in my head. burst my brain. im such a pain in the ass. Studies not good. Friendship not able to hold it well. Family not able to hold it well. what on earth am i good at? Crying? yes crying. Why am i crying? cause my heart hurts, game over, i'll never be the same. i surrender myself to deathdoor, deathlord, you may pick me up anytime.