Lovey Dovely.

Lovey dovey. Went to had dinner with Chris and Glanny just now, Seeing them lovey dovey totally makes me think about you again although i tried not to. I tried to distract myself with other things like focusing on my food but memories just comes back to me. Sometimes, i wish that i would get bang by a car or bus or something big and kill me. If not, lose my memories. I wont remember all the things i've done and totally lead another new life. I know it is a selfish act but i dont know either. Whatever it is, Alanny said, wait for you to find me instead of me finding you. I Moved on, because of HuiYun. She tried to make me happy and tell me to move on. I MOVE :D Its august and i dont want to spoil the month by thinking of all these sad things. July already had fun killing me inside. August will be kind, i guess. Off to study for tmr's prelim. Physics. GOGO !

Prelims

A Photo to let my readers laugh a bit, This is exactly how Olympics divers look like when they dive. I still got a few more of them diving, but meanwhile, just this will do. Today was very slacky, During Chemistry was sitting behind with Fatin reading our own blog post and laughing at ourselves. I read my posts previously, i just cant stop thinking how dumb i am to like report everything i do for the day in my blog, i mean its super boring for the readers yeah? agree? cause i agree. :P Prelims is just tmr, SS paper and Maths paper1. Good luck to all my readers for your upcoming project/ prelims. My August Wish is to have a room of my own and make everything in my room my own style. My Left wall, i shall draw S I S T A R on it and paint it. Get a glowing tape and tape the floor so that it glows at night. Most importantly a table where i should all my things. Also maybe a noticeboard, so that i can pin up my timetables, pictures etc. For that, got to wait. AND AFTER PRELIMS, ITS GONNA BE ONE TOUGH MONTH BEFORE N LEVELS. JIAYOU EVERYBODY!!!

Lost magic.

Sense link, A Lost Magic in Fairy Tail. Fairy Tail is a very good Anime, you people should watch it. Its the B E S T. Best. Some times, telling my family things is very tough. Telling them about a girl, they keep saying about me being gay. WTF. i mean, hello?! im telling you about a girl and you're constantly talking about me being gay. LIKE HELLO? its something serious ya know! i know that they might be joking but.. not now ? Sometimes, i am just annoyed that they cannot stay serious. But being too serious is not good either. but nevermind. Leg got stab by Durian and it hurts like poawnfckvwo002159i94yt78q9weiokdmnv. But nevermind, its getting better now. :)

Perfect.

ZhengWei next to me :) Currently missing him, He is so cute i swear. He acts just like GuoHao, but better. Anyway, Prelim this coming week, i havent study any shit for anything. Whats wrong with me. Gonna Study tmr. N level Chinese Oral tmr, wish me luck man, Passage reading is the problem, Picture is okay. Conversation is also alright. Just the passage. Plus, i am the first one to go. VERY STRESS. Recently lots of problems keep coming to me, All about love. Love, why not? Why come and hunt me when i am in this period where my exams are super close. I tried controlling myself. i really did, but i guess my control wasnt strong enough.Maybe what i want isnt love is someone who is always there for me and listen to me. aish, Gonna move on, Maybe not used to be single. now really needing someone. Argh. Looking at my twitter background, Two photos of me wearing your jacket, Do you rmb? i was angry at you but i still put on your jacket and took 2 photos. i was never really mad at you before. just cant bring myself to. aish. I should stop thinking all these and go and take a 30mins shower and sleep. buai people.

Dr Feel Good.

Lots of thanks to my readers, Thanks for going through this tough time with me, Really really thanks a million. Maybe a shout out perhaps. :P Thanks Tea Hui Yun, MY BELOVED METALFLIP. heheh, Thanks for reading my blog and actually try to understand me. Took a lot of photos with Huiyun recently, Leaving Riverside soon, gonna take more photos and keep them as memories. I cant believe without swimming, i still look like malay. Mdm soh walked outside our class during recess to talk to us cause HuiYun and I are not allowed to be there, LIKE HELLO? WE NOT EATING THEN WE CANNOT STAY THERE MEH? THE MALAY GIRLS CAN WHY WE CANT, NOT LIKE WE GOING TO STEAL ANYTHING RIGHT.-.- tsk, anyway. Stancent leaving for bintan tmr and he didnt tell me, At all. Tsk, such bitch. Heh. but i still love you. heheh. muacks. :P Enjoy your trip hor. Prelims just next week, i havent start studying, Fuck my life, gonna start studying tmr. Jiayou everyone! :D Going to watch FairyTail now. <3

Kentrick n Nigel.

Nigel and Kentrick, Although i am not close to either of them nor did i talk to them before but they are so sweet! dont you think? They were once together, but i think they are back together again. LIKE SO SWEET. i see their love story like very sweet, after that, i think to myself, If we have a chance, will we still be together like how we did before and take a really sweet photo like we used to? I guess the answer is a simple and quick one, No. I guess you wouldnt want to either. But at least we learnt something from the relationship, did we? im glad to know you and actually send you to sleep next to me. Jump onto your bed everytime i go to your house and sleep. Talking nonsense with you even though i know its stupid. But i know i have grown up from this experience. I know how to control my emotions and eventually take care of someone, leaving you might be my biggest regret but now to think of it, nope. its not a regret anymore, its a good thing to do, Letting you explore the world with your another half while i concentrate on my studies and eventually move on with life. Even though looking at sweet couples like Nigel and Kentrick makes me feel tempted to get a new person soon but, to think of all the troubles that i have to go through again. Life's great without a partner recently, i dont have to report everything i do. although its boring and most of the time, lonely. But i am better off without a partner, i got my amazing friends around me. i love them a million!

Door of hope.

Everytime God closes a door, He will never fail to open another one for you. True enough, the moment god close our door, Another door opened for me, I just got to step in. Its good to see that there are people supporting me. THANK YOU PEOPLE, Love you a billion. I ran out of photos to post so i had to google, amazingly they came out with a Rainbow door so, i decide to post it and share with you people. Reason being, Door is a main part of a security purpose, Rainbow is what everyone wants to walk into. Open the door of Rainbow, you never know what may happen behind the door of rainbow. If i were to have this type of door at home, i will be really happy to go home and stare at the door.  Cant wait for my mum's friend to move out and chase my sister to the other room, but she wants to rent it out. Personally i find it annoying, i mean. i am already, 16? and i cant have my own room, which is annoying, If she move out of my room, my room will be cleaner and very neat. i will want to repaint my room, paint a new colour, perhaps white, One of the wall i will DIY, paint myself. hehe.

currently watching a video of Pasta OST, the song i guess. From SNSD, Named Forever. some part of the video reminds me of you.Now, You seems happier, seeing that you're happier, it makes me happy. IT BRINGS OUT MY HAPPY FEET :D

Happy.

Somehow, this photo really makes me think. If one day someone comes back at me asking how are you, will i text him/her such a long text. It must really hurt for the people to type this long message. Your first month was on the 23th. Which means you two got tgt on the 23 june, Faster than i thought, No wonder people tell me that just move on he can forget you that quicky and get into another relationship in 2 weeks, why arent you going to move on? Yes. i had been with Kewei, another slut but i wasnt serious with him, NOT SERIOUS AT ALL. i mean, who would want to be very committed in a relationship with a player? Knowing it wont last long putting in effort is just like pouring pure water into the drain. Whatever it is. Videocam with stancent last night, he is really a nice guy. although he looks weird online but, i guess he is okay in real. He is like supporting me from the back all along. I just realise that. HEHE. thanks! <3

Promises.

Promises, are they meant to be broken or to be kept? A pinky promise, text promise, word promise. To some it matter a lot, but to some, its just... Words that mean nothing to them. "If one day you feel like crying, call me, i dont promise that i will make you laugh but i can cry with you." Waiting for someone to tell me this. Although i hardly cry with anyone, if i did, i must really trust you and believe that you'll be here for me for life.    Today, i really found out that, having someone to really care for you, really matters. It does not matter to me what other people think about me. Whatever it is. True friends are hard to come by. Congratz on your first month boy, Seems like you're really happy with him rather than with me. People told me that if someone moved on too quicky after a long term relationship, they are not serious about the previous relationship. I guess so. People are spreading rumors that i see one, i love one. If i were to do that, dont i have MANY ex? I wonder what these people actually want from me. Whatever it is. I dont really care. Move on and die.

I love you.

I said ooh~ jiltuhage haji mayo
Ooh jipchaghage haji mayo

-2NE1, I love you.



Loving u~ u~ na eotteokhae what should i do?
Jojeori andwae nae mam gojang nabeorin heart
Jeongsin mot charil mankeum
Boy i’m falling in love with u~ u~
Na eotteokhae what should i do?

-Sistar, Loving u

Shocking.

THIS PHOTO IS TOTALLY NOT LINKED TO THE THINGS IM GONNA SAY LATER. SO. enjoy the chicken in the photo while you read what i am going to say. :)

Here goes,

I did not stay with Guohao for 1 year just to prove that Relationship can last more than a year. THAT IS TOTALLY NOT TRUE. I promise myself that whoever who spread this rumor will get it from me. Spreading the wrong stuff when you got no idea what actually happened. Its just too bad that you cant hide for long. You know, Paper can never stop a fire from burning? Thats exactly how truth works, and thats why my blog link is, paper-madeof-trust.Burnt means burnt. If you got no idea about certain things, you better keep your damn mouth shut. Dont act like some bitch and go on and on spreading rumors. Although there will be people not believing you but still. Grow up will you?

Anyway, happy birthday to my sister. she had been singing happy birthday to herself since this afternoon. LOL.

MeeYee

THIS IS MY BELOVED METALFLIP. I know, we look like couple, act like couple but we're just best friend, or maybe one day, we'll be lovers but it depends on Feeling :) Today is super awesome, and word of the day, MEEYEE.  yes, Loo Mee Yee. MY CLASSMATE. Apparently, she won the singing competition. I AM SUPER PROUD OF HER, i cant express how excited i was when she was on stage. The excitement is. overwhelming. Saw Andy there too. he is super cute, i swear to god. His smile is a stamp, and he is super nice, Guy/Girls who gets him is super lucky. A cute guy with a nice heart. :) I look not bad in photos recently 'cause i got over you. I danced so hard during DanceOff the other day and Shouted so hard for MeeYee. My heart is empty now. :D Now, worry for Prelims and N levels. After that Work and prepare to leave for genting during November. We shall see how things goes, :) Anyway, just for your information. I do crazy things when im with my bestfriends, hehehee

True.

Until the day I truly get over you, it's the day when I already stop caring about us.

Walked away.

Hi, do you still remember these two kids we got together? I wonder how my children doing at your house, I miss going to your house and jump on your bed and sleep. Met up with Alanny yesterday night just to talk, he asked whether i want to drink beer or not, i wanted to but i said no. Somehow, he never fails to make me feel better. I told him roughly what happened, he told what he thinks about you and ben. I sort of agree but i dont want to comment much. He told me Sky Monterro on Facebook said that he envy us, for being able to make our relationship last for 1 year, yes, 1 year. I didnt want to listen to what Alanny was saying 'cause i know it hurts. but something he said, stuck me. And that might be the reason why i cant get over you, The watch we got. He said, " why are you still wearing the watch?" The day that we got the watch, i promised myself, no matter what happen as long as the watch is still working, i will be loving you. It is still... working perfectly. i guess, i will keep it away and get a new one. Today's dance i didnt manage to give all out because it was awkward.Maybe one day when nobody is at home, im gonna do what i do best. DANCE RANDOMLY. HAHAHAHA. thats what i do when im bored,stressed up. It has been long since i last do that. My mum would scold me for being crazy if she sees me like that. I've never been like this before, Never in my entire life. Feeling so awful for days. Even when my dog pass away. i got over it within 1 day. I guess, the memories we created is everywhere, Even when i come out from the school gate, i look at the busstop, i would remember you wearing green with your bag, with earpiece on and playing IPod.  I thought i see you outside my school the other day but it was another guy, Everywhere is strained with our memories, my bike too. I remember you hugging me from behind when i ride you to waterfront. Complaining how pain your ass is. To think of it, i remember you say, Who are you to make me cry. i am, your boyfriend.  but now, Who are you to make me cry? I see people worrying for me to get well, i know and i appreciate them and i know i got to STAND UP and move. Vanni see me feeling sad and she dont know what to do, All she can think of doing is to hug me. HuiYun is always comforting me, i really really want to move on but im just stuck in time. I only cried for a relationship once, and i told myself to never cry because of a relationship, Now, i cried for a few days because of you. You dont. bother. anymore. You called me a kid, a immature one.. i accept the fact,yes i am a kid a immature one that still cares for you and cry for you.. People who talk about me behind my back, you told me you just take it as a opinion, you said you're still protective over me. how i wish you could just scold the hell out of them, Who are they to judge me, They think they so perfect? huh? Nicholas, Joshua. you two think you guys are so perfect? If you're perfect, you aint suppose to be talking about people behind their back. After a cry, everybody sure do feel better. Stronger. Maybe thats why you no longer feel anything, numb. Another reason for unable to forget you might be because, everytime i tried to forget you, a voice at the back of my head tells me to give you a little bit more time. My angel. I agreed with what joseph said, "I want to walk away, forget everything, die or to say. Lose my memory." Maybe after that, i will become what i was before, Cheerful. I WANT TO BE CHEERFUL. I WANT TO. BUT I CANT. AND THIS SUCKS. I AM NOT SUITABLE TO BE SOMEONE WHO EMO A LOT , 'CAUSE I DONT LIKE EMO PEOPLE BUT I AM GETTING SO EMO RECENTLY. IM GETTING DEPRESSED. I DONT WANT TO GET DEPRESSION. NOOOOOO.

It's. Official.

It's over and officially I feel numb to it already. Slept a bit and woke up feeling numb to things people tell me.